突然のお知らせですみません…、
5月以降はFanboxの活動を終了させていただきます…
知人が悪意をもって私のアカウントのことを周囲に話し、「いやらしいコスプレをしている」「Fanboxをやっている」などと言いふらしていることを知りました。 私は以前ストーカーの件で警察にも相談したことがあり、プライバシーを守るためコスプレの活動は身近な人には秘密にして続けてきました。 その方がもともと私のことをよく思っていなかったのは知っていましたが、私が本当に好きで続けてきたコスプレを否定されながら周囲に広められてしまったことがとても悲しくて、とても怖かったです。 Fanboxも応援してくださる方と交流したい気持ちで始めたもので、インターネットに投稿しても問題のない範囲で活動してきたつもりでした。 それでもXで遠回しに批判され続けたり、友人たちと私の噂話をされているのを見てしまい、最近はとてもつらくなってしまいました。 気持ちが落ち込んでしまい、夜もあまり眠れず、突然泣きながら目が覚めてしまうこともあります 応援してくださっている皆さんのことを思って頑張ろうとしていましたが、少しだけ休ませてください。 まずは1週間ほどXをお休みしたいと思います 交流のために始めたFanboxも、いただいている衣装の撮影分までは責任をもって投稿し、その後は終了する予定です できるだけ早く戻ってこられるようにしたいと思っています ご心配をおかけしてしまって本当にごめんなさい…いつも支えてくださってありがとうございます。
I’m sorry for the sudden announcement, but I will be stopping my Fanbox activities starting from May. I recently found out that someone I know has been talking about my account to people around me in a negative way, saying things like I do “inappropriate cosplay” and that I run a Fanbox. Because of a past stalking issue that I even had to consult the police about, I have been keeping my cosplay activities private from people in my personal life to protect myself. I already knew that this person didn’t like me very much, but I never expected them to spread things like this about me. I started my Fanbox simply to share more photos and communicate with people who support me. Everything I post there is within a level that can safely exist on the internet, and I have always tried to run it responsibly. However, seeing indirect negative posts about me on X and knowing that they have been talking about me with others has been very painful recently. My mental health has been affected more than I expected. I haven’t been sleeping well and sometimes wake up crying. I really wanted to stay strong for everyone who supports me, but I feel that I need a short break right now. So I will be taking about one week away from X. As for Fanbox, I will finish posting the cosplay sets that were already promised, and then I plan to take a short pause there as well. I hope I can come back as soon as possible. I’m really sorry for worrying you, and thank you always for supporting me.
안녕하세요 갑작스러운 공지 죄송합니다 5월 이후로 팬박스를 그만둡니다.
제 지인이 악의적으로 제 계정을 주변인에게 이야기 하며, 제가 야한 코스프레를 한다고, 팬박스를 한다고 퍼트리고 다닌다는 걸 알게 됐습니다... 스토커 문제로 경찰서에도 다녀온 저는 코스프레 계정을 사생활 보호를 위해 주변에는 비밀로 하고 활동중인데... 그 사람이 저를 원래 싫어한다는건 알고있었지만 정말 제가 좋아해서 하는 코스프레를 야하다고 비난하면서 제 주변인에게 퍼트릴줄은 몰랐습니다. 팬박스도 팬분과 교류하기위해 사진을 여러장 올릴 뿐 인터넷에 올릴 수 있는 문제 없는 수위로만 팬박스를 운영하고있는건데... 그 사람은 계속 X에서 저를 저격하며 친구들과 제 뒷이야기를 하고 있고 그걸 읽고있자니 요즘 너무 괴롭습니다. 우울증도 심해져서 밤에 잠도 잘 자지 못해요.... 갑자기 울면서 잠에서 깨기도 하고요.... 응원해주는 팬분들을 생각해서 힘내려고 했지만 더는 안될 것 같아 1주일 만이라도 SNS를 쉬고자 합니다... 교류를 위해 만들었던 팬박스도 선물받은 코스프레 발동까지만 완료하고 접으려고요.... 가능한 빠르게 돌아올게요.. 걱정을 끼쳐드려 죄송합니다.