let's talk about it

hi guys hope you guys doing well sorry its just something i kept to myself so long my mental health not looking good recently... i don't know... at least its what i feel... because i feel like my habits change a lot more compare to before like i don't feel the same before anymore feel really tired (like physical pain) eating also less... sometime feel really nervous and scared for no reason... have nervous stomach (easy to stomach pain) thinking too much... (stress) care about what other think most of the f*cking time...(even if i pretend not to) repeat same action multiple time...(like doing thing has to be 3 times etc...) to feel safe...? doing thing has to be perfect or i have to repeat again or start over (this also applied to drawing because i have to repeat...) everything feel boring...very boring sometime... i love drawing but sometime do take a break too thats why i not always online like looking at pixiv or social media even when playing game also a pain lol(i love gaming too) sound like depression huh and must be some underlying mental health condition right... its not like i know it but i feel it everything changed... guess its time to go see doctor.. honestly, even when drawing too... im not gonna lie when i draw manga i always run out of ideas..... like i cant think of any story its so annoying and its gonna take a long time to redraw its also why i didn't publish anything sometime... i redraw many time and im tired of it honestly... because if a scene is not correct or natural it feels awkward... i really not good at making story... also, draw after coming back from work is really tired on the other hand i just draw what i think like just draw... nothing about story (well...if its a short story like 2 or 3 page its fine though...) but when it comes to story (especially long story/plot) its really confuse lol and also everytime when i thinking about the plot other plot/idea always pop up too... (like i like this idea better or i love this scene too) so in the end i just draw everything i want to and end up not knowing what the story i want to create... (many scene and no bubble speech no context no nothing) and then every scene feel like its the same or similar lol and yeah or i can just draw i mean not everything has to be about the story right? but again draw skill has to be high then to express it and im not too... for me context needed because it can explain the situation... i have finish a lot manga already but no context no bubble speech(i can't think of any) (can't think a good title too) but if you want image/scene i got plenty of it lol so i think im gonna publish those, because the manga i draw before has context so hope you guys are ok with this and i have a question i want to ask a long time ago so i hope some you guys can answer that too do you guys love what i draw actually ? because some people may find it boring maybe because there no context or anything...thus every scene looks like the same im sorry about not posting or skip sometime too... the reason i want to talk about this is because my lifestyle really change a lot and its affect my daily life and of course my drawing too.. my deepest thanks to the supporter who support me because its really mean and matter a lot to me..(and motivation) i typically don't charge too expensive because i know my limit and thank you so much to viewer who always view what i draw it also mean a lot to me because the view increase also motivate me sorry about the freaking long note thanks for taking your time to reading if you do.. i appreciated