Hello everyone,
It’s been a while since I’ve announced my hiatus, and in the intermission I’ve been largely silent, both here and on Discord. To everybody who’s sent me a private message both here and on Discord: I will be responding in a bit. ;3
I hope everybody is doing well! I personally am doing a bit better. I’ve (largely) stabilized, and my (minor) depression has subsided. However, my anxieties still make it difficult to go far from my house, and I’m severely limited in what I could (normally) undertake outside of the door. As such I’m still far from being 100%, which goes to show how much that clinical treatment I mentioned in the hiatus post is needed. Though I might be (largely) back to normal at home right now, I feel it’s only a matter of time before I wind back up in that same terrible mental headspace I was in last August. So I’d rather nip my anxiety problems “permanently” in the butt now during my hiatus, as I’d rather keep these kind of “forced” absences to a minimum. It’s my sincere hope that I’ll come back a stronger and more resilient person from the clinical treatment.
It's taken some time before I heard back from the clinic; but I’m glad to say that I’ve had my intake conversation there last Tuesday. And that coming Wednesday I’ll be admitted. The plan is a treatment that will last 16 weeks: The first 8 of which will be clinical (meaning I’ll spend Sunday evening till Friday afternoon there), and the other 8 weeks ambulant (in which the treatment is continued at home; with only one day spend at the clinic). It’s my expectation (and hope) that I’ll be able to start working again in the ambulant phase of my treatment: Meaning that coming December I can start development back on No escape and my other (side) projects.
Now I won’t lie. I’m DREADING going to the clinic and having to spend so much time there. It’s already giving me major anxiety just thinking about it! But that probably also goes to show just how much I need that treatment. Again, it is my sincere hope that I’ll come out of it a stronger, better and more stable Scriptor. And if that means that I’ll have to suffer through my (worst) fears there...I’m willing to give it a real try. Probably still gonna shit my pants the first few days I’m there, though. 😏😋
So yeah, those are the plans for the coming time! I’ll try to keep you all periodically posted on how the treatment is going, though I might be a bit hard to reach for the first weeks (for obvious reasons). Everybody take care of your squeaky butts, and hope to see you all soon!
Yours,
Scriptor