‼️Important‼️: I have no idea why this chapter got flagged for teen safety (which is pretty much children stuff) . Nothing in this chapter has inappropriate stuff like that for the underage so I read through it and figured maybe they were referring to the nickname princess??? I don’t know but I censored it with a “P*”. So any time you see that it says princess.
if this is the reason that my chapter is being flagged then I guess I’m dirty Dan and am in the wrong because what XD? I’m hoping Patreon can help me out with this one but judging from last time I doubt it 🥲. So trial and error here I go 🫡. (Let me know if you might know what part they are flagging for teen safety, I’d really wish they’d highlight it 😞)
Chef Note: I might have teared up a bit while cutting these onions… enjoy the smutty angst soup…🥣👩🍳
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You gasp, choking on air as your four-armed beast fucked you from behind. You tried to hold onto the blanket tightly as you arched your back for him but it slipped away from you, falling to the floor.
The bed creaked loudly from the alphas’ brutal pace, rocking back and forth as it banged against the wall over and over again. At least the room was soundproof… But you don’t think the bed will make it under the pressure of your rough coupling.
“Su-suk…na…” You couldn’t get his name out, your throat was hoarse…drooling lips slacked with exhaustion.
You could barely get a grip on reality.
Your body was worked to its core… cunt and ass growing into a warm dullness of pleasure and pain. Yet you continued to produce your natural lube. Overstimulation for the omega body was weird. You felt like you were high and just before what you were feeling could be deemed painful an orgasm would hit you and it was like your body resets. Your eyes cross anytime you feel the pulse of pleasure spark within your lower belly. Each time, the sensation feels just as intense or more so, than the last one.
Your thighs, Sukuna, and the bed were covered in your slick. It was amazing really. How your body could continue despite your tiredness. Guess Gojo was right about the omega body being able to sit on cocks for hours on end…but how the hell was Sukuna able to go this long with just as much ferocity?
How did one withhold so much energy?
He was able to maintain his true form throughout it all. Prime alpha or not, one alpha should not have all this power. It was like he was running on pure fumes and stubbornness. The only time he slowed down was to switch cocks.
There was no way you could handle both of his enlarged sizes at the same time- fuck you could barely hold yourself up now! Sukuna was supporting most of your weight with his extra hands, your upper body practically deadweight upon the bed, tossing around within the wild frenzy.
Your arms and legs had grown numb, you couldn’t even brace yourself anymore.
All you could do was groan into your pillow, and take it.
This was most definitely the roughest Sukuna has ever been with you.
He would drag you back and forth on his cock...your ass slapping against his skin loudly with each thrust. Your slick squelched with how much there was…it allowed him to go faster and deeper…His four hands were tight around your body...moving you as he saw fit...like you were his doll to do with as he desired… When you were close… he’d remove himself from you to finish you off with his fingers and tongues… yes tongues… his palms, his stomach, his lips, whatever to get you screaming and seeing stars.
He was as ruthless as he was with his cock inside you- demanding even- rubbing quick circles around your clit as he tongue fucks you into oblivion- And once you were done moaning, spasming, and giving him all you could- he was shoving his other cock into you. The second drag around with your juices. Sometimes one would hit your tummy or rest heavily on your back.
He didn’t cum. Didn’t knot once during all of this. He wanted this shit to last.
You don’t know how much time had passed, but if he tired you out to the point you were falling asleep, he’d tell you to heal yourself so he could keep going. He’d give you a harsh slap to your ass and practically bark at you- “Heal.” He barely spoke any words besides that.
And you would do as told.
Why?
Well…
You felt he needed this…
This is how you dealt with a pissed off Sukuna in the game. You’d offer your body as a means of stress relief. In a sense, it was your duty. One that didn’t seem too bad…
For you, it was like a tiring workout… with moments of pure bliss from a shattering orgasm…then you were back to nearly falling asleep. That was probably the hardest part, staying up. Usually, if you were in a fuckathon whoever you were with would let you go to sleep during it, and you’d give them full permission to keep going but not this time.
Nope.
Sukuna didn’t want you to sleep. He wanted you here with him while he threw his tantrum.
Was this toxic?
Hell yeah.
But it wasn’t anything you couldn’t handle…
Again the hardest part was staying up…
So yes… you would heal yourself for him to mark you up all over again.
He would give you time to heal yourself, rubbing soothing circles into your aching back…the calming sweetness within his storm… it would bring you a little smile… but once you were done he was pinning both your wrists above your head- back to growls and frustrated pants.
The only thing you hated was the fact that you hadn't kissed him...well, you've kissed the mouth on his hand, but you hadn't gotten to his actual lips.
You tried to look at him, but he'd grab your hair and angle you away or push your face into the mattress.
He didn’t allow you to look at him.
It felt like deja vu...like that time when Nanami didn’t want to look into your eyes...too afraid to see what secrets your expression would unveil.
But Sukuna’s reason was most likely due to something else… He knew how much you loved him. So it wasn’t that. Maybe he didn’t want you to see... see how hurt he was…how much pain he was in.
You could most definitely feel it.
His body was hot-
His touch just under the point of scalding temperatures. If his hand got too warm he’d move it away and try to shake the heat off. Sometimes you could hear the crackling of fire from his breath.
He was like an angry dragon.
All because you cursed him with such a task…and wouldn’t take it back.
…
When he asked you to reconsider, you had neglected to do so. Within his frustration he transformed and punched the wall, fire burning around his fist. You found yourself staring into the next room which was thankfully empty.
You could feel his anger boiling, the rage within him was suffocating you. Before any more destruction could occur…and destroy Nanami’s bank… You pressed your backside into him… grabbed his wrist and brought his hand to your throat.
“Use me…”
Those words just came out of your mouth. It was like you saw the choices on your screen and picked the one you’d always go for by default.
You accepted this.
Accepted his burning hatred.
Of course… he didn’t hate you… He hated the situation. He hated that you chose him.
It would have been easier if he did hate you.
If you weren’t someone he loved, your task would have been a breeze. It would have been so simple. Hell, he probably would have taken you out as soon as he realized you could be a detriment to him… but he didn’t… he didn't want to kill you even if he was met with the two options of his life and yours.
And even though it was a hypothetical situation…it didn’t matter.
It was the chance…
The fear that this was what your path was leading to… why you were brought to this world… the more you thought about it the more it just made… sense…
He opened your eyes to the possibility. It was so easy for him to point it out before, but that was because he was willing to accept his fate.
If he died... due to the carelessness of his pack...over the love for their omega…well he would have been just fine with that.
But you weren’t.
You weren’t okay with that.
It would be too much for you to bear...who in their right mind would want to be the cause of their lovers’ death?
The very idea was painful...and you knew that…you knew what he was feeling…
So was it selfish?
Selfish of you to allow him to hurt this way?
It would have been so much easier to set him free from such mental shackles.
Why couldn’t you take it back?
Why couldn’t you give him the relief that he so desperately seeks?
To allow him to fall with the rest of the pack under whatever demise came their way?
No…
You couldn’t- couldn’t allow another you to take your alphas.
The thought of such a thing made you want to vomit…
You’d rather…leave.
Leave this forsaken world…
You never belonged here in the first place.
The story wasn’t supposed to go this way…
You weren’t supposed to be here…
Is this your punishment?
Were you doomed from the start?
Do you go home?
Sukuna's movements slowed down until he fell forward, panting. His hands were planted on either side of you. His body was shaking due to the lack of energy.
Is he done?
You hadn’t felt him cum yet…His cock was still hard within you. But maybe he was too tired to finish.
Your own body was feeling like it was ready to tap out as well. You didn't have enough energy to heal yourself anymore. You just knew you were going to hurt, when it's time to go. Your other alphas will be displeased...but you will have to come up with a good excuse…you didn't want to tell them what you asked Sukuna to do...you hoped no one else heard...they wouldn't like your decision.
You felt your alpha returning to his normal form. He was silent for a while… it felt strange now… no longer hearing the banging of the bed and the lewd noises of sex.
Now it was just oddly silent.
Sukuna’s breathing was heavy but soon he was able to calm it.
Now you could hear the ticking of a clock. Your eyes moved to the dresser in the room, a little clock was on top of it.
Huh… you never noticed it before.
The rhythmic noise began to lull you to sleep. Your eyes blinked slowly. You tried to fight it, awaiting for Sukuna to say something… or cuddle… or do something…
You just took quite the dicking, comforting was in need now. And some kisses would be appreciated.
You licked your dry lips readying your body to speak words instead of moans, “-“
Something wet dripped upon your back... it was probably sweat...but you could smell something a little more salty...not like his sweat that smelled like baked cinnamon apples...
You never smelled this before…
Was he…?
You didn’t say anything instead, you slide your fingers across the sheets, and rest your hand upon his in a comforting manner.
Your touch made him flinch.
"Heal me..." His chest rumbled in irritation.
Rude.
You kept your gaze on his hand, drawing circles with your finger, "Can't...” you released a sleepy yawn-“…not enough energy."
“…Give me what you have.”
You released a tired snort, “…I would if I could Sukuna…”
The alpha pulled out of you with a huff and dropped to the side. You slid into a comfortable position so you could see him. He was lying on his back with his arm lying across his eyes. His sweat-covered chest rose and fell with his breathing.
You realized that little bit of movement took the rest of your reserves. Your lips felt like they were moving, and you believed you heard your voice…but you had no idea if you were even speaking tangible words.
You just wanted him to kiss you. To make you feel loved even in these tough times.
You weren’t sure if you were able to articulate that before falling asleep.
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You don’t know what you were dreaming about but you were 99.99 percent sure it wasn’t a smutty one.
Someone’s arm was around your waist and you were wearing a hand as a choker…and you had a hand rubbing teasingly within the crevice of your thigh and another hand cupping your breast…
You didn’t open your eyes but you could smell the husky scent from Sukuna.
What the hell?
He was already back in his true form and ready to rumble?
How much time passed?
Like a minute?
Dear Tengen…
His mouth upon his stomach was panting against your back licking at you like it was hungry.
He was awakening many parts of your body, but he didn’t touch the areas that were aching for his attention. His movement was mindful, as if trying to wake you up before he got to what he truly wanted.
You let out a little groan, trying to press more into him.
“Hm- you finally up?” Sukuna questioned licking your ear. He moved his hand from your throat up to your lips, circling his finger around them. “Don’t go back to sleep until I’m done with you.”
As you try to come back to the land of the living, the alpha was already lifting your leg so his stomach tongue could finally get its taste of you.
“Kuna-“ you cried, twitching in pleasure as the giant wet muscle wiggled around greedily. It desperately tried to squish inside your cunt. “-Mm! Mkuna- d-did you even sleep ah~?”
“…” Sukuna didn’t answer your question. You could have assumed he didn’t hear you but then he was pushing his fingers into your mouth. His palm cupped your breast and he pulled his tongue away to replace it with the tip of his cock.
Before you knew it he was rocking inside of you, starting his lustful rage again.
That answered your question plenty.
He didn’t sleep.
You tried to look at him, to talk to him, you knew he was angry but now this was feeling vindictive.
And still-
He wouldn’t allow you to turn around.
You felt your throat tense up and not from his fingers… You were starting to feel overwhelmingly sad… He didn’t give you any good girl praises- he didn’t kiss you so deeply and look into your eyes- he didn’t hug you close while mouthing off about how you annoy him with a sprinkle of a blush-
Was he that hurt by you…
It wasn’t fair…
He wasn’t the only one in this!
And if he is going to break your back then he needs to kiss you and put you together again with some high-quality aftercare!
Yes, you told him to use you- and yes, this is how you do it in the game… There was no aftercare after these types of moments…the main character just took it and went on their way. They actually took much worse than what you were taking but that’s neither here nor there.
You were different. You with your brain and all your emotions couldn’t handle this type of treatment even if you wanted to.
You needed that aftercare.
Getting fucked like a whore can only be followed up with p* treatment lest you feel unloved.
You knew Sukuna loved you but…you felt…
You felt deprived of it.
You needed him to make you feel cherished and loved.
You needed that so desperately that it hurt.
The euphoria you once felt morphed into depression.
The change happened so abruptly and so quickly that you lost any mental control you had. It was like a spark in your mind that zapped you into a different state.
As you gagged on Sukuna’s fingers you began to cry. It was silent at first…and Sukuna didn’t notice, he probably thought they were tears from you choking. He continued to rock in and out of you but when a sob shook your body he froze.
Fingers left your mouth and now they were grabbing your face turning your head.
This was the first time you were able to see Sukuna’s eyes since you started this affair, and it made you whine pitifully.
His four eyes took in your tears, they seemed concerned as they looked over your body, “I didn’t hurt you...” His palm licked at your face, “Why are you crying.”
He said it so simply.
Like he couldn’t even fathom why you were crying all because you weren’t hurt physically.
And that just pissed you off.
You glared at him, “Why am I crying? Because-because of you! Why are you treating me like this?”
“Didn’t you give me permission to use you? This is me using you, how I want.”
You grit your teeth, “That’s not the point! You can fuck me like a whore all you want but at least treat me like a god damn p* afterwards! You won’t even kiss me!”
Sukuna scoffed, “Is that why you are upset p*? You want me to kiss you?”
“Yes!”
He finally pulled closer leaning down to finally give you what you wanted…But then he didn’t kiss you. His lips barely touched yours, he lowered his gaze and hissed, “Take. It. Back.”
Your eyes felt like they were burning, your breath hitched and your heart started beating faster.
You released a snarl as you pushed him away and jumped off the bed, your darkness trailing behind you even as you yelled at him with your hands, “So you are that upset with me huh?! Didn’t you say we need to stop being emotional! Well, you are acting pretty fucking emotional right now Sukuna!”
Sukuna was up now, his body burning fire mirroring the shadows curling off of you. “You have four other fucking alphas-“
You shriek as you hit his chest with your fists and your words, “They can’t do it! You know they wouldn’t be able to do it-“
Sukuna grabbed your wrists, “Don’t give me that responsibility!”
“So whose supposed to take that responsibility Sukuna?! I’ll wait- oh yeah no one! Give me some fucking peace of mind Sukuna- I just want to make sure if worst comes to worst I won’t wake up with my lovers’ blood on my hands!”
“So you want your blood on mine?!”
“I don’t know- I don’t fucking know Sukuna!” You didn’t know what to say because either way the situation is fucked.
“Tch-!” Sukuna stalked away from you about to leave but you weren’t done-
“Where are you going?!”
“To go set something on fire! Something I should have done earlier instead of staying in here with you.”
“What-“ you grabbed his arm, the flames not even burning you. “-what the hell does that mean?”
“You asked me to do something I didn’t want to do and then you throw yourself at me and cry about it- what the fuck else does it mean!”
You release a laugh, and you could feel your mind spiraling. Spiraling into this unforsaken darkness. The room was being eaten alive by Sukuna’s flames and your shadows. But you couldn’t even pay it any mind. Because the next thing you do is scream, “Fine! Fine fine fine! I’ll fucking take it back! You don’t have to do it Sukuna! Hahaha, aren’t you happy you don’t have to! Because I’ll take care of it myself!”
Sukuna glared at you, “What are you doing?”
“Something I should have done a long time ago before you kidnapped me!”
You flip Sukuna off with both hands as you jump back and phase through the walls. You were then running for the trees… but it didn’t quite feel like running, it felt like you were gliding seamlessly through water. You were just gone into a mist of darkness.
Where were you going?
Home.
You were going to go fucking home.
You’re real home!
Or so you thought…in the moment of arguing with Sukuna…
Because you barely go into the forest before you float into the air and curl into a dark ball inside a tree and start crying.
You could hear Sukuna looking for you, screaming and shouting your name as he searched… but he couldn’t find you.
Your scent had disappeared within your shadowform. You left no physical trace for him to follow. Not even the ball could follow you.
You were gone.
Hiding within the darkness.
You wanted the bastard to think you were going home… but you didn’t want to go home. Those were just empty shells you fired at him. You just wanted to hurt him…like he hurt you.
In truth, you wanted to stay here with your alphas… with your friends… with your pups…
It was almost hilarious considering he’s the only alpha that you run away from.
But this little game of cat and mouse wasn’t as fun as your others...
The desperation in Sukuna’s shouts hurt your ears.
This was so fucking annoying.
You didn’t know what to do.
You were just a chaos of emotions at the moment. And it was all his fault.
Why was he so stupid? You didn’t want to be mad at him…you didn’t even want to hurt him… mentally or physically… you just wanted to kiss and make up.
Why couldn’t the stupid bastard just kiss you?
That’s all you wanted…
You wouldn’t be here if he did…
Now here you were acting like some runaway pup hiding at the park… might as well bust out the damn emo playlist…
You heard the rustling of wind and branches snapping as Sukuna below the base of the tree you were in. He was only wearing pants, not enough time to throw a shirt on in all his haste.
His eyes and head were on a swivel, “I SWEAR TO TENGEN I’M GOING TO BURN THIS WHOLE FUCKING FOREST DOWN!” The alpha's hands lit up as he readied four fireballs, he then proceeded to toss them everywhere in a fit of rage.
You watched in utter shock as the alpha… well did exactly as promised.
He didn’t really give you much time to hop out now did he?
The trees and bushes caught flame, and creatures and critters ran away from the pits of hell. Smokey the Bear would have been greatly displeased. Especially considering you could have stopped this forest fire.
You noticed that Sukuna had a single eye closed the entire time, perhaps hoping the ball would locate you once again.
“Sukuna! What the fuck is going on!” Gojo flew into view and that's when this whole thing started to feel even more dreadful.
The rest of your pack and pups were about to get dragged into this bullshit.
“She- she ran away! But I know she didn’t go far- she wouldn’t leave us-“ Sukuna growled.
“What- why did she run away-is this one of your kinky chase things?”
“No! Gojo- you go that way-“
“Dude! You are scaring everyone- and what if you hurt her with your fire?!”
Funnily enough, the fire wasn’t hurting you, not within your shadow form.
“Just fucking look for her!” Sukuna leapt deeper into the woods as Gojo chased after.
You slipped away from the tree, deciding to head back to the inn. You could see people gathered outside staring at the fire that threatened their village.
Nanami was trying to calm them down while Toji rushed out to find Gojo and Sukuna. Getou had his spirit with the pups and a few other spirits that were flying over the forest putting out the fires.
A sinking feeling sat in the pit of your stomach. You felt bad that your argument with Sukuna turned into such a whole ordeal. Once Sukuna sees you back in your room then he'd come back… but you didn't want to talk to him right now.
You were emotionally drained.
You came out of the shadows forming in front of Getou but your body was still covered with dark clouds, funny how you could still think about your modesty in this situation since you were still very much naked.
The alphas’ eyes widen once he noticed it was you, “Baby- what the hell happened?”
“I’m sorry…” You whispered to him, while walking inside the inn.
“About what? What did you do? Why is Sukuna freaking out?” Getou questioned as he followed you, casting a weary glance behind him.
“Getou… I can’t right now… I’m just going to go to my room…he will come back now that he sees I’m here…” You moved swiftly because you didn’t want to see him. Not right now you couldn’t handle it.
“Okay- but we are going to have to get you another room…”
As soon as he finished, you saw your door was thrown off its hinges, and the whole place looked scorched and singed. Ah yes, the room was very much fucked.
You shook your head, “Then I want to be in your room- I don’t want to see him right now Getou.” You rush to his room, trying to get him to hurry up.
“Can you explain to me what’s going on-“
“Not right now! Hurry hurry!” You could hear Sukuna coming, and Nanami along with Toji shouting at him.
Getou opened the door and you rushed in.
You were feeling so unbelievably uncomfortable. You were feeling like you needed your nest. You needed to curl up into a ball and hold yourself. You were running circles around the room, panicking because you didn’t know how to calm this overwhelmingly icky feeling. It felt like spiders were crawling on you and webs were all around you. You swatted at yourself and whined.
“Alright… alright that’s enough…” Getou grabbed you, holding you tight.
“G-Getou I’m sorry-“ You started crying once the sensation slowly started going away, your alpha soothing you.
“It’s alright my dear…lay down.”
You climbed into Getou’s warm bed, he always had to use his own blankets and pillows because the inns were never good enough. You loved them, they were so comforting and soft. The best of the best. He adjusted the many pillows he had, tucking you in so gently.
You sniffled as he got up but you whined for him to come back.
“Don’t go please…”
“I wasn’t going anywhere…” He had gotten up to remove his shirt you realized that he was not trying to leave you.
He then climbed into bed, forming around you perfectly, holding you and purring softly.
You focused on Getou. On his soft skin and hair that tickled you. The relaxing noise and his fresh cotton smell.
You focused on everything but the yelling that was going on outside of this room.
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Chef note: Hope you enjoyed your angsty smut soup until next time. 🖤👩🍳
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