Chef Note: Sometimes I’ll go back and fix chapters if I see something wrong and every single time it asks if I want to update the kitchen and I always click no. The other day I had accidentally clicked yes and that’s why you guys got a notification for an update. But it was really just me updating a chapter by fixing a word. So no matter what little change I do it will ask me if I want to update you guys and I wish it didn’t do that lmao.
So sorry for the inconvenience I hope you enjoy this plot-heavy meal! It’s about 7k lmao
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“What the hell?”
You heard someone curse making you pop up from slumber at the ready. “I said don’t kill each other!”
“You guys woke my baby up.” Toji muttered in irritation as he rubbed your legs.
“What’s happening?” You questioned finding yourself lying on the couch, your alphas sitting on the ground as they ate their food. Toji, Sukuna, and Gojo were right in front of your couch while Nanami and Getou sat to the left and right. Choso sat opposite of you.
They all looked to be enjoying their meal…and not trying to murder one another…so why the sudden outburst?
“Go back to sleep, we will tell you later.” Nanami spoke.
“No she should hear this, go on tell her what you just told us.” Getou urged, looking rather annoyed.
You blinked toward Choso as he finished chewing his food.
“Um…yeah…My father told me to bring back Mahoraga if I were to find him…I assume you know where he is?”
“Huh?” You raised a brow, pushing yourself up. Now you were fully awake. “Kenjaku told you to bring him the shikigami? He’s not even a summoner?”
“Honestly I was more surprised he knows about this cursed spirit.” Nanami pondered. “Did he tell you anymore?”
“No.” Choso shook his head, “As I said, he only told me to bring it to him if I happen to come across it during my search for the light and dark book.”
“What do you make of that?” Gojo questioned leaning his head back to look at you.
“Hm…I dunno…” You twisted your lips trying to connect this to the game. If Kenjaku attacked the witches he would have found the book but he never used it in the game. He’s not a summoner. So what would be his reasoning for retrieving it? Perhaps he feared anyone else using it but how did he know about this creature? Who told him? Was it his family? Did they pass down this hidden knowledge? “…I got nothing.” You finally say with a shake of your head.
Getou popped his lips, “What bothers me most is HOW would you even bring him the book? No one can pick it up but our darling.”
“That part.” Gojo snapped his fingers.
“Oh yeah, I didn’t even think about that. Did your father give you something to pick up the book?” You questioned.
Choso looked confused, “No he didn’t say…maybe he was unaware of such a roadblock... Is there a spell or curse that keeps the book grounded?”
“We aren’t sure.” Toji stated. “Can’t smell any magic from it, but that doesn’t mean there isn’t any. It just might be past my spell grade.”
Getou gestured toward you, “Didn’t the Shikigami say something like you have to be a bonded chosen hero to hold it?”
“And he’s chosen?” Sukuna scoffed. “Yeah- right.”
“He called her a star hero…not a chosen hero. Maybe we should see, Choso should try to pick it up.” Toji suggested.
Your eyes widen, “Are you crazy? G.Ma freaked out when I picked it up, I don’t want her to freak out if Choso is able to pick it up too.” You deny.
Sukuna looked annoyed, “If we can’t pick it up, he definitely can’t. Makes no sense to even try.”
“…”
The room got a bit quiet before Nanami cleared his throat, “I would also like to ask if you know about…chains… gold chains…on a person…making them…um a bad apple…”
“Chains?” Choso raised a brow.
“Like…from a nursery rhyme…”
Choso pondered but then Gojo popped up-
“Oh oh! The bad apple song! I know that one! Theeere~ once was a little boy who was a bad apple-“ you nudge Gojo so he would stop clapping and singing.
The white-haired alpha was confused wondering why you had stopped him. “What? They used to sing that shit to me all the time at that damn temple. They called me a bad apple. All the elders know it.”
“I had no idea that was a nursery rhyme.” Toji looked toward Sukuna who shrugged.
“Never heard of it.”
“Like I said it’s an old religious rhyme-Wait.” Gojo paused looking toward your blonde, “Is that song about you?! Damn, Nanami, I didn’t know you were famous!”
Your blonde appeared a little dejected- your alpha not realizing how deep this wound was.
You tried to lighten his burden, “No no~ not about Nanami- it’s about his ancestors…at least that’s what we believe…Choso have you heard anything about that?”
“Can’t say I have…” Choso answered. “…Although I do recall my father disliking a certain nursery rhyme. He fired one of our maids over it. And prohibited anyone else from singing it. I wonder if that was the one.”
“If it was, then maybe your father used to be a man of the church?” Toji suggested.
“Perhaps… he rarely talks about his past. I truly don’t know much about his life. But I know it must have been a difficult one. He always told me to be cautious of the witches and the priests…of pretty much everyone…says that all this world does is lie…”
You were curious as to what Kenjaku’s life was like. From what you read he seemed to live a pretty good one. But then again what is said in the game seems to be all from Dove’s POV. If you were finding out new things about your alphas, then maybe you could discover Kenjaku’s true motives.
What caused him to become a villain.
“Go back to sleep baby.” Toji patted your leg as you slowly nodded and rolled over. You were still pretty tired.
“Night.” You closed your eyes, getting comfortable as your alphas began to whisper.
“I would still like to see you pick up the book.” Getou started up again.
“Are we seriously circling back to this?” Sukuna questioned in annoyance.
“Oh my Tengen Sukuna- stop being insecure for one fucking second. You are just scared he’d be able to pick it up!” Getou whispered snapped at him. “Just like you're scared of using your damn cock ring you got from the sex shop!”
Sukuna sounded flabbergasted, “I-I don’t need that. I just got it for Gojo since I ruined his!”
“That is a damn lie, I already replaced mine.” you heard the shifting of clothing, sounding like Gojo was flashing his ankle bracelet.
“Do you always wear that?” Getou questioned with a suspicious tone.
“Sukuna the toys are great additions for the nest.” Nanami put in his two cents quietly.
“Did you have that on last night.”
“If you guys can’t make our omega wet then just say that.”
“Satoru did you have that cock ring with you yesterday.”
“That is not what I am saying Sukuna.”
“Satoru you better answer me.”
“Choso who made her squirt the most?”
You heard the beta stammer, “I-I don’t know how to answer that…”
Okay, you are not going to be able to sleep! You roll over just in time as Gojo threw up his hand and yelled-
“Me!”
Getou glared at him over his cup of tea he sipped.
“Oops-“ Your loud alpha realized you were up now. “Sorry baby. But you have to admit it was me I was drowning in that pu-“
“Alright-alright!” You cut Gojo off. “Please don’t get Choso involved.”
Choso looked happy for your save because that would have put him in a very bad position.
“Well…Nanami made you the wettest I have ever seen…” Toji spoke up almost solemnly.
“Hm?” Nanami wasn’t questioning the statement but more the tone.
“Oh.” You realized what Toji was referring to. “He-he means when we were in the library…I was ah… yeah, it was the gel Nanami used on me, it made me really sensitive down there.”
“The gel did that?” Toji questioned.
“W-well it helped along with other things.” You chuckled as your blonde flashed you a knowing smirk.
“Yes, it was quite a satisfying purchase. I will let you borrow it if you’d like?”
Toji flashed a huge grin, “Yeah…yea I would like to if that’s alright with you?” He looked toward you with excitement in those eyes. He was ready to roll RIGHT NOW!
“Of course, but not now…” You weren’t sure if Choso would be able to handle sitting hungrily outside the bakery while the ovens were running on full blast. Before Toji could be disappointed, you added, “…I’m sure you will tire me out on your own. And I want all my energy to go to you so I can take it how you like.”
That made the alpha sway his head in a ‘yeah you’re right’ way, “I like that… then I can knot, cuddle with you and keep you bed bound.” He was practically drooling over the idea.
“I want to use some too!” Gojo added.
“Yes, it will pair nicely with your COCK ring.” Getou stated with sassy flair.
“You are so right buddy.”
Then everyone looked at Sukuna.
“I don’t want that shit.” He sniffed in annoyance, placing his plate down.
“It might help her take both of your true cocks just saying.”
“Ryoumen, just think of them as enchantments.” Nanami sighed.
“THANK YOU! The sex shop is just another form of a damn armoury. Can ya think about it like that, you blood fiend?” Getou loved his toys... He was very passionate about this…
“It’s nothing to be scared of Sukuna.”
“I’m not fucking afraid of anything!” Your alpha was feeling cornered so he attacked the only other person he could in the room, “What- you get those bars on your dick for enhancements? Your bitches like em?”
Choso grew red, “I…I actually…never…with anyone…”
“Pfft. Then what’s the point of having them?”
“I…got them for Raven… she made a comment about them being interesting…”
That had everyone looking at you- the ENTIRE ROOM SHIFTED-The atmosphere felt like an angry snarling moon was coming to crash down upon you with haunting music playing and you only had 0.2 seconds to stop it.
OH FUCK!
“I- THAT WAS NOT- WAIT!“
“That…was another version of you…” Gojo began… his expression looking scary.
“Well?” Nanami cocked his head, “What are your thoughts on them?”
RAVEN YOU FUCKING BETCH-
You took a deep breath getting ready to lay out a ten-page essay of why you and Raven were two COMPLETELYdifferent people and though you did wonder very briefly how it would feel, you weren’t about to play with it like a xylophone!-but then you smelled Yuta.
“IT’S YUTA!” You point at the door. “He’s here!”
SAVED BY THE DAMN BELL!
“Don’t think you're saved from this conversation.” Sukuna pointed at you with a glare.
Translation your ass was grass.
You inwardly cried as your alphas answered the door.
“By the darkest night, what happened in here?” G.Ma’s voice caught your attention as you watched the older woman waddle in. Yuta right behind her.
“Sorry for the mess, we will make sure it is cleaned before we leave.” Nanami said as the woman handed him a bottle of something.
You made a note of the exchange in your head.
“Ah-“ The woman frowned in disgust covering her nose, “This place is going to need a whole treatment! You have covered it from top to bottom! Let us go to a different area before I pass out!” She turned shuffling away.
You got up to follow just as Choso stood.
“I will stay here and clean up…I do not wish to make Yuta angry…”
“Thank you.”
“Of course.” Choso bowed as Gojo pushed you along.
“Do you think I should get rings on my cock?” Your alpha whispered in your ear. “-like actual rings- like piercings- do you want piercings on my dick?”
“Gojo stop, your cock is beautiful just the way it is.” You left the room with your pack, Toji questioning the older witch as you walked the hall.
“You are going to be joining us?”
“Of course. The last time your omega freaked out and you almost attacked us. I do not know what will happen this time, but I will be there for extra precautions.”
“What does that mean?” Nanami inquired.
Yuta informed your pack, “I’m going to try to make it as easy as possible…but there is a chance she might get upset by what she sees...according to what I heard…this memory may bring up unpleasant emotions.”
“I want you to explain everything you’re doing while you are doing it.” Nanami stated firmly.
You felt nervous now, wondering how you would feel. You remembered your alphas saying you were screaming and crying. You knew whatever you were about to see wasn’t going to be sunshine and rainbows by any means. You tried to keep your nerves in check, because your men were already getting antsy.
As you entered a fresh room, Getou whispered, “Are you sure you want to do this?”
“We have to or else what was all this shit even for?” Sukuna scowled, having heard the alpha.
You hadn’t a clue what to say to comfort them on the situation, because you were already feeling overwhelmed. You couldn’t believe this was finally happening. But you can’t get cold feet now. You had to unlock what was in the dark. Your memory was erased for a reason. You needed to know why.
“Come lie down.” G.Ma patted the therapy looking couch. Yuta standing by it.
As you walked toward it you got some encouraging squeezes and kisses from your alphas.
Sitting on the couch you looked toward Yuta who had an apologetic expression.
“Sorry about earlier.” He whispered while adjusting your pillow.
“Are we good or are you going to explode my brain?” You whispered back.
“No no-“ Yuta looked almost hurt, “- It was just- it wasn’t you I swear it was just my issue with him. I didn’t mean to drag you into it…”
“Drag what?” Nosy G.Ma questioned leaning in close to hear what you were talking about.
“Nothing.” Yuta dismissed her.
If there was one thing you could say about the situation it was that Yuta wasn’t even telling anyone that Choso almost killed him. No one seems to know. So that gave you good faith that Yuta was telling the truth. So you won’t tell your alphas that he sort of kind of threatened you.
“I’m sure you all know what this is.” The older woman placed a pendulum on a marble table. And with a push, the wooden piece started swinging back and forth with a clicking sound. “This will help lull your omega to a state of sleep and awareness. You. Alphas. Must be silent during this time. It is important to allow my grandson to concentrate. He is a master of his craft but interference can cause issues. Do I make myself clear?”
“We will not interfere…” They all said in one way or another.
But you could tell that they were just saying that to appease the woman. If anything seemed out of the ordinary you were sure they would jump in.
It was but within their nature.
“Okay…” You lay back as Yuta stood above you.
“You ready?”
“As ready as I’ll be…”
Yuta then looked up and explained what he was doing, “Erasing a memory is easy but resurfacing it is much harder. Well…technically I could just bring it back without all of this but doing that can cause complications. Instead, I will enter Raven’s mind and show her the memory. That way, your mind does not get twisted.” Yuta waited patiently to get your alphas’ approval before he continued.
“And this won’t cause her any harm…?” Toji questioned.
“No. Maybe some slight discomfort. But nothing that will cause pain.”
Nanami looked at the others as they all slowly nodded. “You may proceed.”
“Perfect. Then let us begin.” The alpha reached down, touching your temples.
You felt warmth bloom from his fingers. You couldn’t help but look at your alphas. Reaching a hand to them for support. Gojo tried to step up but G.Ma put her cane out to stop him.
“No touching. This requires a full-body experience. She must focus within.”
Your alpha let out a little whine as he backed up.
“I’ll be okay.” You smiled placing both hands on your stomach.
“I won’t let anything happen to her. You have my word.” Yuta tried to comfort your alphas before returning his attention to you. “Raven…I need you to start counting…slow. Pace yourself with the ticking. Three ticks before the next number.”
You closed your eyes as you began, “1…2…3…….4………”
You don’t remember what comes after four.
~
You felt weightless. Feeling warm like you were cozy in a blanket.
“Raven.”
A voice called to you.
“Hm?” You open your eyes to find you were looking up at a blue sky with glowing yellow streaks as if it were permanent lightning.
Yuta was standing above you looking like how Choso appeared to you in your call. An astral projection of himself.
“How are you feeling? Can you stand?”
“I’m pretty sure I can…” You move your hand and feel something shift. Looking down you see that you were lying on sand. As a matter of fact, there was sand all around, as far as the eye could see. That wasn’t all though. There were also many many towers, all different lengths. Most of them were basic grey towers but some of them were white, and a few of them were black.
The towers had roots that spider-webbed to the others.
There were so many of them.
“Are these…all my memories?” You question standing up.
“Yes… Well, some of them. Some memories get lost. If they weren’t as important to you.” Yuta pointed to a one that was slowly sinking into the sand.
“And that one?” You pointed at a tower that was slowly reconstructing itself pieces fitting together with magic curling around it.
“The one that you are creating now.” He called as he began to walk through the long rows.
You followed after him looking at everything in awe. You couldn’t see anything within them, they just looked like basic structures. You passed a tower that was huge, its stones painted white, with white roots.
“Why is that one so big and a different color from the rest?”
“That is a core memory, that one in particular empowers your light magic.”
“Core memories…” You mouth slowly, wondering if little cartoon characters were going to pop out.
“Mhm, touch it.” Yuta gestured.
You hesitate for a moment, “Is it going to be something bad?”
“It shouldn’t. I heard light magic usually derives from righteousness.”
You walk closer, raising your hand you place it upon the tower. Within a flash, you blinked and were looking at yourself in the mirror as your hand wiped condensation away. You smiled at yourself, wearing pink lingerie, dancing as you got ready- ready for your alphas!
This was when you gave your alphas their ‘gift’ which was you!
The memory played out. All the emotions and feelings flooded through you-
All the way until you were cuddling with them in bed and waking up in the morning.
You gasp as the memory finishes- “That- this memory empowers my light magic?”
“Yes…was it something bad?”
“No-no it wasn’t…” You gulped feeling a bit warm from the aftermath. “…but I guess I just don’t understand how this particular moment could do that. It was- it was just me with my alphas…in the nest.” You say with shyness in your tone.
Yuta let out a little laugh, “Yes, of course! That is a beautiful moment with the people you love. It might be a reason why you fight, it’s a happiness you wish to protect.”
You looked at the tower again, seeing it ooze with warmth and light energy. A memory that was dear to you. A memory with the ones you love. You could feel how happy you were. How peaceful you felt when you woke up the next morning surrounded by your alphas. It was probably one of your best days with them…well before everything turned to shit…
You spotted a tower that was black like charcoal, its roots the same color. It oozed darkness all around it. It wasn’t too far away from this very tower, going back in the other direction you came from.
You point at it, “I’m guessing… those ones…empower my shadow magic?”
“You would be correct…”
“So how do you make your magic so strong? If anger…or sadness is the root of it?” You question as the two of you continued.
“…It’s the same for me.”
You furrowed your brows, “But your power is so strong and you never seem…upset. I think the first time was when you threatened to kill me.”
“I-“ Yuta turned on you with a worried expression, “-I didn’t threaten to kill you I was- I was trying to make him- feel the hurt I felt. To take something that he loved dearly…”
“I get it.” You released a laugh, “I’m happy we are close enough to where you wouldn’t hurt me. And I can’t apologize for Choso but I’m working on him. He thinks…he thinks you are here to hurt people. I’m making him see that it is not true. I'm sure he will realize it when you find the book and we use it to bring your wife back.”
Yuta smiled, “That…that’s all I want…”
You spotted a tower behind him that twirled with white and black like yin and yang. “Whoa, why is that one a mix?”
Yuta looked over his shoulder and hummed, “That must be a moment that channels both your energy.”
You walked forward but stopped at a tower before it, you didn’t want to see what it was. Afraid of any of the bad memories that already haunt you. So you use the tower next to you.
After placing a hand on it you blink and see the omegas and betas you saved from the eternal city. You were talking animatedly as you put on a show for them. You could still feel the ache. The ache that haunted you so much from your mistake.
Pulling your hand from the memory you were aware of what the mixed tower was.
“Did you want to see it?” Yuta questioned but you shook your head.
“No…I already know…” You didn’t want to relive it. Once was one too many.
It took rows and rows of memories. Before Yuta finally stopped at an area. In this particular spot, you saw how roots dipped underground but there were no towers connecting the adjacent ones.
It looked as though the sand was moving and something was underneath it.
“Is this where it is?”
“It…is…” Yuta drawled.
You looked toward him wondering what was with the tone but you noticed he was looking at something else.
“What?” You question looking in the direction, that’s when you saw in the distance there were a bunch of flowers planted in the sand.
“That’s…different.” Yuta mused.
“Should we check it out first?” You question.
“We can go after, this memory is already so far down. I don’t want to lose it.” Yuta kneels on top of the sand and thrusts his hand into it.
“Ah…” You felt a weird sensation, like your brain was tingling. You shivered as the alpha kept pushing sand away and digging deeper, all the way to his shoulder.
“Almost- got it-“ Yuta then threw his other hand at you, “Got it! Take my hand.”
You moved swiftly, and as soon as you touched his hand you opened your eyes to find you were looking at a weird shadowy figure.
It spooked you at first-
“Who are you?” You called stepping back but then you heard-
“Woah… this is trippy…”
It was your own voice.
As the figure moved around you could see that the area you were in was the same one as when you made a call. However, you couldn’t see anything unless the figure was looking at it. When the figure looked at their hands then you could see parts of your body, it's yours in the astral projection state.
You could only see what your past self could see, everything else blended off into fog.
Then the rings sounded.
The figure looked down at the ground, watching as the rings waved out in circles.
You couldn't hear your thoughts- nor could you remember how any of this felt. Not like the other towers you touched. You were just a viewer, peering through the eyes of your past self.
It was uncanny. But you would rather this than having a split personality disorder.
The figure of you walked around but she didn’t even get two steps before the rings connected with a boop!
You swallowed nervously, you must have been confused about what this meant. Just like you had been the first time.
“YOU BITCH!”
You jumped at the shout, not seeing the person until your shadow was grabbed and turned by her shoulders.
Right in front of her was none other than Mahito.
She gasps as your own eyes widen.
He was snarling at you-
“First you don’t call me till now and then you pull that shit in Aika?! Oh ho ho-you better have a good reason for all of this! You turning on us huh?! You falling in love with those assholes?!” He was shaking you back and forth- you couldn’t see your expression but you could only assume you were scared by your silence.
“…”
With everything you knew now- this doesn’t surprise you… This just proved your theories right.
“Say something!” Mahito pushed.
“M-Mahito…uh…I-I’m sorry…I didn’t mean to ruin the plan…” You uttered out. “The alphas- we just so happen to be traveling that way-I didn’t want to bring suspicion on myself by averting their attention!”
That was good… You were playing along.
“Don’t fucking lie! What are you doing in Shapuro- are you trying to stop that too?!”
“…I’m- im just following my alphas-“
“Do I need to remind you what will happen if you betray us-“ Mahito paused, his eyes narrowing. He brought you close, holding your shoulders as he stared at you.
“N-No I won’t betray you I'm sorry!” Your voice quivered.
“…Hm … something is…different about you…. Which crazy split personality are you this time? Or is this a new one?” He pinched your cheeks as you struggled to get away from him. “Let’s see…are you Raven? Or ~ Y/n?”
“!” Your past self was in shock.
“Are you about to freak out on me? I said your trigger word! Y/n Y/n Y/n~!”
“Stop!” You were panicking. “Stop it!”
No wonder… You hadn’t even told your alphas your name at this time… but here Mahito was using it to make you freak out.
“Ah~?” Mahito touched your temples with his fingers, “Oh my! Hahaha! What happened to your fucking cancer?”
You manage to push the alpha away stumbling backwards. You put your hand to your head, “Dis-“
“No you don’t!” He grabbed your wrist stopping you from disconnecting the call. “You can fight alllll you want. Raven or Y/n - whoever the fuck you are-it doesn’t matter what new personality you have, because you will kill those fucking alphas whether you want to or not!”
“No! No I won’t!” You screamed as you tried to dispel the call, fighting Mahito, who grapples you to the ground.
“YES- Yes you will!” He sneered with a wicked grin pinning your hand above your head, “ENJOY THOSE COCKS WHILE YOU CAN SWEETHEART! HAHAHA -BEFORE YOU KILL EM ALL!”
“NO- NO-STOP- STOP I WONT! I WON’T”
You watch in horror as you fight with Mahito…and he just…laughs-
Telling you over and over again- “You will kill them-“
And all you could do was scream-
Until finally he puts his hands on your head and casts a spell- “Erase.”
You then blinked your eyes and found yourself lying within your mind again. On the sand. You felt like you were going to throw up. Lurching forward you hold yourself and begin to cry. Why was he saying those things to you? Why did he say you’d kill your alphas whether you want to or not? What was your purpose? Were you truly brought here just to kill the ones you love? Is that your cruel fate?
“Raven- Raven-“
You sniffled looking up as Yuta gently touched your arms. “Yuta- I-“ you couldn’t even speak as you threw yourself at him crying.
“It’s okay- it’s okay what’s wrong?”
“Me-im wrong- I think- I think something is wrong with me. I think I’m cursed- I don’t know Yuta- I think my alphas are in danger and I’m the reason for it-“ you couldn’t help but bawl your eyes out. Your mind began to shift into darkness. The sky no longer blue. The ground rumbling as the sand threatens to consume everything.
“Sh sh~ calm down Raven. If you get yourself worked up too much you might drop…”
You let out a choked sob, “I-I can try- I can-“
“Breathe Raven. Breathe with me.” He placed a hand on your chest and took a deep breath. You matched his breathing instructions as he told you to “…hold…one…two…three…out… big breath… one…two…three…”
You swallowed, your throat tight but you were able to finally get yourself calm. As calm as you can be after learning that your mission was to kill your alphas and it would happen against your will. “…Ok…I think I’m alright…“
“Rika used to do that to help people calm down…” He smiled sadly then dropped his head, “I…know how it feels to be a danger to the ones you love… Rika…is in her situation because of me… she was dying and I…I can’t live without her... I cursed her to be a monster…shackled her to me forever…I’m the reason…” Yuta drifted off, catching himself. “…I’m angry… I’m angry at myself. I hate myself…That’s what empowers me...saving her…is the only reason I can keep going. It’s the only reason I must continue to move.”
You blinked a few times getting yourself stable enough to speak, “I’m so sorry…”
“Don’t be… that just gives us another reason to stick together. The book of miracles can probably help you too…”
“Yeah… maybe you are right…”
The two of you sat in your silent angst. It was comforting in a way. Perhaps this magical book could help you but you just needed to figure out how… how were you a threat? Then maybe you can stop it. Maybe the answer is somewhere within here. In Raven’s .., and your mind. You don’t have to relive her memories. If Yuta could do what he did with this tower, then maybe he could do the same with the others.
You voiced your thoughts, “I have other memories that I can’t remember…do you think you can show me those too?”
“I actually wanted to talk to you about that…” Yuta stood grabbing your hand. He then bent down and leaped into the air.
You floated upwards high up and then gently came back down into a field of translucent flowers. They seemed to take up a huge area between the towers. As if it were just a river of them. They looked like glass now that you were up close. But they didn't crush under your feet. You had never seen a flower like this.
“What do these flowers mean?” You question as you step through them.
“I don’t know who sealed these memories, but it seems to be a spell that not even I can unearth… however.” Yuta walked past them bringing you to a tower that was cracked in several places. Glowing yellow lines filled the cracks. As a matter of fact, all the towers on this side were cracked with glowing yellow as a sealment “…These memories here… were broken it seems and someone fixed them.” Yuta pointed to the curse energy. “…but then you have someone that placed these flowers over your other memories…there are like three different curse residues in your brain,” Yuta said with a frown.
“What…?” You look at him confused. “What do you mean?”
“I don’t know… I have never seen a mind like this it’s pretty fu- i mean… different.”
You furrowed your brows, pointing to the fixed towers, “So this… this side of my memories is where it was broken and someone fixed it… this part… where the flowers are…someone blocked those… and those ones… the ones that are fine are memories that haven’t been tampered with… well besides the one that we just looked at?”
Yuta nodded looking at your brain as if you were a science experiment. “Yes. This is most fascinating. Also this…light magic is very strong.” he touched upon the lines in the cracks as it sizzled. “Perhaps you can figure out what happened if you take a peek? I do not wish to intrude on your personal life.”
“Did you… see my other memory?”
“No, I just acted as a conduit.”
“Appreciate it…” You say stepping to the broken tower that was pieced together by light magic. It was a grey tower so you were sure it wasn't any canon event or emotional trauma. Touching it you were brought to you playing your game… playing the House of Alphas. You were just about to beat it for the fifth time. On the final boss. A cup of wine right next to you.
“Come on come on!” You cheered excitedly while fighting. “MISS BITCH! OH YEAH!”
The whole memory played through until you beat the game.
Then it stopped there.
You pulled your hand back. “Wait-“ you gasp looking around. “This can’t be right I’m so confused…” You moved to the other towers and each one was a memory from your life before the game. Your life at home. “What…”
“What? What did you see?”
“I- I don’t know…” You run across the field of flowers going to the first tower that was not broken. Putting your hand to it you were revisited by-
Your natural clock woke you up. The sleep you were getting made you suspicious of the time. Rolling over, you furrowed your brows, noticing the dark purple comforter and pillows you were met with.
Whose bed is this?
Quickly pushing yourself up, you noticed the beautiful castle room you were in, it was decorated in purple, black, and gold. The walls are made of stone, and candle chandeliers hang from the ceiling.
Where am I?
Whose room is this?
The whole memory plays out. You pull your hand back and drop to the ground, it was the day you woke up in the castle. Your eyes move across in utter confusion, how could this be? By the trajectory of these memories, it would appear that they started in your world... And right as you defeated the final boss on your computer… the flowers started. Covering the memories between then and when you woke up in the castle.
Could this mean your story didn’t actually start at the house? It started long before that? Were you and Raven just blended up parts of… you?
You put your head into your hands, this was driving you crazy.
Yuta walked toward you while looking into the metaphorical sky, “Did you find whose light magic this is?” He pointed above. “It seems to be the thing keeping your mind together. Without it, you'd probably be a broken mess no offense.”
You breathed as you looked up to find that the curse energy that was in the broken fragments of your memories was also within the outer layers of your mind. “I…I don't know…I was very sick…and crazy apparently. So yes, I was a broken mess… psychotic even…but someone healed me. Made me better. I wish I could figure out who.”
“If we find this person we could figure out a way to remove whatever curse you may have?”
“Yeah… maybe… but I don't even know where to begin…”
“…We could start with the flowers. These are Meiko flowers, a special kind that the common people do not know of. A witch had to have planted these. We can ask G.Ma.”
“A witch?” You hummed wondering why a witch would conceal your mind. Guess you will have to ask them when you meet them. You slowly nodded, “Okay… that’s a good start but… there's one more thing…” you fiddled with your fingers. Your worst fears were becoming reality. Mahoraga calls you a star hero while Mahito claims you to be the death of your alphas. So who brought you here? What is your true calling? You needed to figure this out. You need to know why you were here. And if you were here to destroy your alphas…You cannot trust them to save themselves. Not even Sukuna. “…I need… Yuta, I need you to do something for me…”
“Sure, what is it?”
“The pups… Nanako… she knows how to call someone back. I need you to figure out how to do that and teach me so I can…I need to call someone.”
“Are you trying to call whoever erased your memory?”
You nod, “Don’t tell anyone. Not even my alphas…” You felt yourself get choked up, “…I need to do this to protect them Yuta. Only I can protect them. They don't care if I'm here to kill them. They don't care if they die by my hands, they will let it happen, and I… I can’t Yuta… I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I…”
The alpha’s expression turned sorrowful, “I understand…Your secret is safe with me. But getting around that eye thing on you will be a bit of a hassle.”
“You- you’ve seen the ball that follows me?”
“Ah… yeah? I'm sure everyone is aware of it.”
Pfft- everyone but you! Looks like it was just a simple thing that just floated on its merry way and no one batted an eye at it!
CREEPS!
“Okay- well, the eye doesn't go into the bathroom. And it can’t see everything. It can see invisible things but not my shadowform. So perhaps if you hide in the shadow as you did at lunch. I’m sure you could bypass it.”
“Got it…and what do you want to say to your alphas? There are going to be questions.”
“You can tell them the truth, you didn't see the memory and the old memories are covered by a different spell. I'll handle the rest…”
“Sounds like a plan. I'll get back to you as soon as I figure out the call situation. I've been meaning to learn more about this spell anyway.”
“Thank you, Yuta.” you say with the utmost sincerity.
He smiled, “You want to help me free my wife… that is more than enough to have me in your debt for a lifetime.”
“I can’t wait to meet her, she must be one hell of an omega.”
“She is! Headstrong- we thought she was going to present as an alpha when we were younger. She was very protective of me. I think we would bonded when we were younger. Before we even mated.” He beamed reminiscing about the past.
“I know you two will get along well. She has her spats with G. Ma too.”
“She’s already sounding like my new bff.” You both let out a light laugh. “Let’s go back now.”
“Close your eyes… and listen to the ticking sound. Focus on it.”
You did as you were told and slowly but surely you came back to reality. You breathed as your eyes fluttered open.
“What’s going on?”
“Are you okay?”
“Wait? It's over?” Gojo questioned.
“It’s done.” Yuta stated with finality.
“That was only five minutes.” Nanami mused as your alphas crowded around you.
“It felt longer than that…” You say sitting up with help.
“Exploring memories is just reopening the past. The time was already allotted.” G.Ma stated while stopping the pendulum. “Did you find out who did this to you?”
You swallowed nervously, “I…Well…my memories were covered by these flowers.”
“Meiko flowers to be exact.” Yuta said.
“Flowers?” Getou questioned.
“So you couldn't get shit?” Sukuna stated in irritation.
You reach for his hand and give it a slight squeeze as if to tell him there was more but you didn't want to say it right here.
“Do not speak so aggressively towards my grandson! Those flowers are from the psychology wing of our family. Witches that like to play with the mind. Perhaps you should speak to that foul woman who planted the seeds!”
“Then who did it so we can have a chat with them?” Toji crossed his arms.
“You know her well, use your brains now- MEI-KO FLOWERS!”
“Mei- Mei Mei?” you ask in bewilderment. “
“She’s a witch?”
“She’s part of your family?”
“Is she your granddaughter?”
“Family!? Granddaughter?! Absolutely not! She has abandoned us long ago!” The woman looked away in bitterness. “And I hope you know she uses a spell to make her look much younger! She's my age!” You could tell there was a lot of disdain in G.Ma’s voice.
Yuta seemed just as surprised by this information. So he too, didn't know Mei Mei was a witch.
“Why would Mei Mei erase her memories?” Getou questioned.
“Who knows why that dokko does what she does!”
“I’m feeling rather tired.” You speak up. You didn't want to say anything in front of G. Ma. “…This whole… thing was exhausting. I would like to go to my nest.” It wasn't a lie- you were extremely tired and this didn't help you in the slightest.
“Of course baby.”
You tried not to think about Mahito’s words. You tried not to think about how your life was being thrown off its tracks. You tried to get your mind ready to set up a plan for an attack.
You tried.
You tried so hard.
But as you finally got to your room and your last alpha in closed the door behind him…
That's when the dam broke.
“*Hick*” You were immediately crying. You crumbled as hands grabbed you, everyone trying to comfort you.
“Whoa, what's wrong?”
“What happened?”
“Baby tell us what happened?”
You sniffled trying to get your mind right. What should you tell them? How do you tell them without telling them? They won't understand. No they will- but they will say something along the lines of- ‘It’s okay- we will figure it out-”
You didn't want to lie to them.
You didn't want to hurt them.
You didn't want to be in this horrible situation.
You couldn't stop crying-
“Put her in her nest.”
You were brought to your bed as you curled into yourself, your alphas trying to all comfort you the best they could, but your nest wasn't big enough for all of them.
“It’s okay sweetheart…talk to us…”
“No not now... Let her rest now…”
“We can talk about it when she calms down.”
“How can we make it better if she doesn't tell us?”
They were freaking out, and you weren't doing them any favors by breaking like this. You need to be strong. Strong for them. Hold your pieces together the best you can as you smile and say it's fine.
“I- i’m okay… it’s…I talked to Mahito… in the call, he said… he said I was ruining their plans... And he was mad at me… screaming at me… I couldn't help but feel so sad… I must have been so scared...”
“I will end his life…” Someone hissed under their breath.
“Sh… let her finish…” Nanami was wiping your tears away as you continued.
“…Um… he realized I wasn't Raven…started calling me by my real name… and then he erased my memory…but that's not all...” You quickly jump to the next thing so they wouldn't ask questions about what else Mahito told you. “…I… there were these towers… they were memories…my memories in my world. They were cracked but someone had put them back together…but they were mine so how? How does Raven share my memories too? Or are those just memories that formed when I got here? Or am I just… me? Like I teleported here? But that cant be…This -this isn't me is it?” You began to touch yourself in the areas that made you different. “All of this- Some things are different - some things are the same- but- I just…I just don't get it.” you sobbed.
“It’s alright…it’s not the end of the world.” Toji gave you a soft smile rubbing your cheek with his thumb. “We already knew Mahito and Raven were working together.”
“Yeah… and besides we got another lead. Maybe Mei Mei knows who healed you?” Gojo spoke, his chin resting on your legs.
“Exactly…Next stop is the Omega house… and while we are there we can ask her about her mix-up with Dove.” Getou added, bringing your hand to his lips he kissed the back of it.
Their voices and postures were tight, they were feeling overwhelmed despite their comforting words.
Sukuna was the one to finally pop off, “Why not just end this? We are right here we can go north now.” He was fidgeting in his spot.
“No…” You shook your head, bringing yourself back as much as you could. There was something within you. Something wrong with you that will make you hurt your alphas. You don't know if it's a trigger or even a spell that will flip that switch. You needed to talk to Mahito. You needed to get more information. “…If…” you sniffle a bit before you continue, “…if we are to do that i want to go south first to get all the treasure. Get us better gear. We can’t go in with this stuff… so we must wait and plan.” You scratched at your arm, feeling itchy, for whatever reason your nest was not comforting you. You felt sick almost. You sit up looking around, “Is this my room?”
“It is?”
“What?”
Your alphas looked around confused.
“I don't know, I just feel… I feel itchy-achoo!” you sneezed rubbing at your nose. “I don't like it in here it feels weird. Like in allergic or something. Something isn't right.” You kick the pillows and blankets away from yourself.
“Did someone come in here?” Toji sniffed around. “Your scent…” he paused, leaning over he whispered into Sukuna’s ear.
“What?” you question them with wide eyes.
“You are feeling overwhelmed…” Sukuna stated calmly.
Nanami, nodded, “You can come into my den to rest.”
You agreed, “Please…”
Your blonde scooped you up and took you to his room.
After your alphas tucked you into his bed and kissed your gently upon your cheek… one by one they left.
The bed dipped where Nanami sat, his hand caressing your arm. “We won’t let anything happen. We will take care of you okay? There's nothing to worry about.”
You wanted to believe that.
You wanted to believe everything would be okay.
But it would be foolish of you to blindly hold on to hope.
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Chef Note: Thank you CamCam46 for the idea to play with Choso like a xylophone lmao 😂.
Everyone commenting and enjoying the smut while I'm about to drop this confusing angst soup in your lap- yeah guys choso piercings am I right 🥹🧅.
I don't know why but I feel like every time we have group smut, some angst is ready to come around the corner. I don't do this on purpose but it seems to be such a running theme in this story lmao 🥲.
Now…You might have a lot of questions … 🧍
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All side dishes aside I’d like to point out a comment from the last chapter. LadySaiya had pointed out how Getou is helping Choso the most and I wanted to let you know about why he is doing what he is doing. (I’m about to copy-paste my reply lol)
Getou was the one who was going to be in a bigger pack but he chose to leave them for Gojo since he couldn’t get along with others. In Getou’s mind it’s either Choso works with the pack or doesn’t and die. He knows reader wants to bring Choso into the pack and is the only one that understands how complicated that could be. He also is able to understand that Choso is important because of his connection with Kenjaku. The other alphas are looking at him in a back off my omega way while he is looking at it like- if he also dies in the story then keeping him alive will also probably keep my omega alive. He’s viewing him in a higher importance to the game especially after what he heard about Sukuna being the one to kill reader in the story. Getou comes off as aloof and silly but he’s put a lot of thinking into the game and how each person can have an important role to saving his omega aka us. The others are playing chess and Getou is playing checkers over here 😂. I know I just dropped so much info because I love how Getou works in the background of the pack but I can’t really show it in his POV since it’s told in the reader's POV. But they will have a conversation about it in the future.