These past few days I have been dutifully shoving in as much food as possible into my belly. Its been so strained and stretched that there is a constant, dull soreness from it. I'm ignoring it, though, and will continue to stuff myself beyond full at every opportunity.
I'm literally tunnel visioned on gaining wright right now. I feel a bit like Jekyll and Hyde, where I have phases where I want nothing to do with weight gain or kinks or any of it. Then other times its like how it is now, and I am so ready to fully give myself and my body over to the fat bodied lifestyle. I'm just going to embrace it whike its here and maybe someday I can win this war within myself and be aroused and gaining 24/7.
Anyways, the scale briefly crossed over to 160 lbs yesterday evening. This is so exciting! I'm motivated more than ever to keep going and pushing for a higher and higher number.