[M4A] …Am I going through an exhibition phase again? [RAMBLEFAP] [Clumsy] [Himbo] [Grinding over jeans] [Exhibition Dirty Talk] [Teasing] [Talkative] [Time it to the strokes sweetheart] [Wet] [Pent up] [Possessive Dirty Talk] [Countdown] [Squeezing the head] [Eager] [Before stream]
I’ve been driving myself crazy every morning with the fact I'm unable to resist my notifications lately. But honestly despite that, I've been really really good...Wake up, enjoy but never indulge, and then hop on stream. This morning though, I couldn’t take it anymore. The thrill of needing it so bad, but at the same time knowing I have to compose myself right after had me feeling so damn hot…I’m a little less shy and a lot more reckless compared to last time.
So much so, I mighhhhhttt have let a few of my fantasies slip out…
I think it’s pretty obvious I was tripping over myself with eagerness in this one. I’m noticeably more desperate and I think that equates to me forgetting about a few things during this recording… It’s kind of embarrassing. I may have been a bit too keen. So be warned, the overall flow in this is slightly erratic and all over the place. And also, wow, I must have been really excited to talk to you too because why is brother yapping this much?? Haha dear lord, I’m pretty self conscious about it actually and I thought about scrapping this whole session when I realized those things. However, when I ran it by the team they said that you guys might find my fumbling cute. And it is a ramble after all…In both senses…I don’t know, I just really love talking with you. I hope you don’t mind these personal 1 on 1 chats.
I know I mention this a lot but I genuinely mean it when I say I want to give you a safe place where you can relax and enjoy yourself. Knowing you had a fun time is the greatest serotonin boost for me. And I hope, even though this ramble is different, it’ll give you just that.
If you are craving some familiarity, don’t worry! Because all the classic mic thumps, sudden desk grips, chair creaks, and abrupt shifting are all charms points that are still included in here!
(…..I’ll learn someday istg.)
Rambles are super fucking hard when you really only get one go at things. Along with the vulnerability of it all, another aspect I find a little scary is not being able to “retake” a line. I know that's the whole point since this is not a roleplay or anything. But I’m a perfectionist when it comes to my audios…The rawness of it all makes me really shy to share them afterwards even though it’s clear I’m really excited in the moment of recording. I’m wondering if I’ll ever be able to shake that feeling? I’m not too sure.
Anyways, do let me know if you got the chance to play along with the little…“game” I talked about in this one. Whether that be very subtly by yourself or as crazy as some my suggestions were- I’d love to know. I would also be super interested in hearing if the mere fantasy of it all was enough fun for you. Again, no need to bring it into reality. It’s all about what makes you feel good sweetie.
But on that note, I do want to remind you darling to please please please always be safe and aware. Let me be a bit protective for a second when I remind you: unknowing parties can’t consent. So inconspicuously is the key here and going unnoticed is a requirement. I never ever want you to be put in a situation that gets you in trouble so please be smart and healthy. I know I probably don’t even really need to say this but, again, above anything I always want you safe.
Okay okay. Enough firm Vain for now haha. I hope these rambles make you feel as good as I do when I record them, sweetheart. I’m also so sorry for the quick dip out at the end of this one by the way. Work mode kinda kicked into autopilot there because I quite literally only like 2 minutes to run over to my stream room. I’m not joking.
The aspect of doing a ramble with a time crunch was so hot to me… but I also realized that my more outgoing outro and being able to snap into my professionalism at the bat might have made it a bit polarizing at the end. I promise the next one we’ll have a proper cool down together, okay? I look forward to it hehe.
Okay, sweetheart- Now go. Enjoy ♡