Normalizing posting more often. Not everything has to be perfect.
A lot of yall have asked me to post without a bra on, but I don't post nudity,
I just titilate,
so I thought blanket coverage would be a good in-betweeen.
Sometimes when I wake up, I'm not sure what to do.
Many times I just wanna stay under the blankies, warm, cocooned. Hidden.
I'm sure for you most of y'all, you get up, either check your phone or just get out of bed and brush your teeth or something. This is no longer my physical reality.
I wake up spooning 40 pounds of useless jiggly boob meat between my legs before I can even open my eyes. The same way a phone takes over most people's brains right when they wake up, my breasts do. Then begins the day. With mammarys.
Before I can brush my teeth, I have to hoist myself out of bed. I throw my arms over my head and back to get momentum to pull their lagging tidelike weight on to my lap.
Once thats accomplished I can begin thinking about what I own that will still cover them. Obviously this has been a moving target that I still try to hit even when I'm staying inside. I don't want to be nude if a delivery comes in or if I need to be ready to go outside quickly. (although quickly getting ready is something I'm not really capable of anymore.)
Bras.
I pick which one will be most helpful for my day. If I'm staying in I go for a sports bra that can keep them in place, mostly. There will be spillage regardless of which one I pick. The fatty spillage of boob that is essentially a reminder of how much they've grown since that brassiere fit them properly, with all of my chest neatly inside the cups. The plumpening that's occured is clearly visible even when I wear layers on layers over a bra. The quadboob that shows through. A big billboard to everyone who sees me that reads...
"EVEN THIS IMMENSE BRA DOESNT FIT THEM!"
Problematic to say the least. Which is why sometimes its easier to stay in.
I hate that I'm becoming a bit of a boob recluse. I don't always mind. But I do think I need to start getting more confident in my new body for the summer. I want sun and fun just like normal breasted women. Just like last year, or the year before when I would walk around with friends in a one piece bathing suit. This year I'll need something custom made I think... Definitely.
Becoming a pile of bed bound boobs is more of a reality everyday but I refuse to give up on having a reality outside of my apartment. Outside of my breasts.
One day at a time, I'm doing pretty good. Practicing acceptance, at any size.
More measurement updates coming. Doctors apt. this coming week, if yall are interested. And Commissions to post. Fun lil fantasies.
Thx for the support.
-Plushy 🍉🍉