Words can't express how bad I feel for how late I am with my art this month, and for the difficulties of the last few.I have been enduring a lot these last months, some things have been transparent, but others I have had to keep private. I realized what was causing my art block was the worst of these emotions, piled upon having my life constantly threatened by mentally unwell individuals. I will keep working hard to make up for how I failed you this month this poorly, but I wanted to at least deliver my full effort to express what I am working through, as the pains and fears I am currently fighting has ripped open wounds and relapsed things I have admittedly, handled poorly by suppression. I feel better now that its on paper, and think the idea worked. I feel ready and clear headed to better do the other images I kept trying but panic attacks kept failing.
I know it isn't the happiest, but I hope it can be a strong step for rebuilding momentum. Thank you, I know I upset and failed many of you, but I will close the gap and deliver everything as fast as I am able, I have been reliable for years, and I wont make a habit of this. For those who understand and have been encouraging, thank you. Truly. I needed a little time to work through some serious issues. I truly hope to use this clarity to speedrun all the partial pieces that I am so late on and owe, and just so badly did not want to be slop from the panic.