My aunt took her own life yesterday. She had been very depressed for the last year (after my grandpa died)
She had asked to see my art recently, but I told her I wasn't ready yet.
I was embarrassed to show her my drawings because I thought she wouldn't understand.
I should have opened up more and showed her my stuff. Now all I have is just regrets.
It's getting harder and harder for me to stay positive when it feels like only bad things ever happen.
I love you guys and I appreciate the support. I'll try my best to not recluse myself away again. Because I can tell that part of me deep inside wants to do it again.
But the rest of me was really enjoying drawing right now. and I had been more excited than ever for some of the stuff I had planned.
Tell your loved ones you love them for me, and try to be there for them more if you think they might need it.
I dont think this is the place to do this, but I don't know where else to do it---
I'm sad we wont get to watch tennis matches together anymore. I'm sad we can't watch new scary movies together. I'm sorry I wasn't in a better place to help you out more.
Rest in piece Cindy, I love you Cindy, and I'll miss you.
and I love you guys! thanks for liking my weird art.