hello everyone! get ready for some ramblings, this could be a long one...this month has not been very productive for me and quite frankly i don't think the next one will be either. i've been feeling burnt out in the creative sense for weeks at this point. and the more i think about it the more it seems to me that i hit my limit with NSFW artworks. hell, at times i feel like i'm done with painting and drawing in general, but bad news for me: it's the only thing that I know how to do in this life. i tried to push through and to look for motivation in the sense of responsibility and commitment to you guys, but that's a dead end and i'm afraid the reason is much more simple — it's just not that interesting to me anymore, especially NSFW side of things. i understand that most of you are here for the specific genre and i'm forever grateful for your support, so i'm super anxious about making any pivots or changes, but i really feel the need. i don't wanna dump a whole truck load of my unpleasant thoughts and feelings onto you guys so i'll spare you any more details of my inner troubles. i dunno what's next! i need a break, that's for sure. i also wanna find something new to be excited about. i've been having this urge to paint some landscapes. or cowboys, weirdly enough. or simple portraits or something else entirely. though i don't think i'll be able to abandon drawing popular characters or hot women completely, i just don't feel like doing it right now.i will not be pausing payments for next month. i hate to do it this way considering the fact that i'm not even sure if i'll produce anything meaningful next month, but this page is my main source of income and commissions are definitely out of the question in the nearest future. though of course i completely understand if someone decides to cancel their subscription — that's fair. i just want you all to always remember: your contribution and support of my work/life is not unnoticed and always appreciated! and as for June rewards, i have some pieces to share with you so stay tuned. come to think of it, i've been running this page for 8 years. that's a long time all things considered!