Dear Diary,
Things have been NUTS.. figuratively and literally. The past few months have been nothing but work and swallowing his cum. Over and over and over again.
His wife has even taken to saying “you’re lucky you can’t get pregnant from the mouth, cuz you’d be knocked up every few days!”
I still enjoy it, but… I don’t know… it kinda feels different… I don’t know how to explain it. I don’t want to say I’m starting to regret it, cuz I’m not, but… it’s starting to feel almost like the closeness we had before is dissipating, it’s almost starting to feel transactional and I’m not sure how I feel about it.
A few weeks ago was new years and we went out to celebrate as per usual every year. They both got INCREDIBLY drunk while I stayed in my senses, not sober, but no where near drunk, hell I’m a bartender, a tolerance is part of the job.
Anyways, they thought it would be really funny on the drive home to sit in the back of the car like I was a taxi driver for them… dang drunks… it was funny tho, but after a bit, I heard a moan from him, looked in the rear view and low and behold… she wasn’t visible save the back of her head, bobbing up and down… She wasn’t visible save sucking his dick literally a foot away from me… This wasn’t getting any more normal…
Why was I feeling like things were so different?! Was I changing my mind on if this was ok or not?! What was going on?! As we pulled in to our neighborhood, he gave a quick series of louder sharper moans before he slumped in to the seat. I pulled in to our driveway and helped them out of the car.
Once we all stumbled in to the house, he grabbed me by the back of my neck and pulled me in to him and kissed me… Right in front of his wife… Didn’t ask if I was cool with that, or if she was ok with it, he just locked his lips to mine and shoved his tongue in my mouth. Here lies some of the confusion… I kissed him back, I massaged his tongue with mine, mixing our saliva, when he broke our kiss.
“Wow…. Happy New Year to me!” He let go of my neck. “Good night mija,” then turned to his wife. “And you… don’t keep me waiting. I’m tired, I’m drunk, and want to get you off before I pass out.” With that, he stumbled to his room.
I walked in to the kitchen and got a glass to get some water, A NECESSITY WHEN DRINKING!! I turned and saw her looking at me, walking in to the kitchen.
“Do you wanna know why he’s so tired?” She asked as she leaned on the counter.
“I can kinda guess as to why… you two weren’t exactly quiet.”
“Well, don’t guess.” With that, she closed the distance between us QUICKLY, pressed me to the counter, and locked her lips on mine…
WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING?! Her now?!
I reciprocated the kiss, now both of our tongues intertwined, hers giving off a… distinct… taste… My hand reached in to her top and grabbed her boob while she her hand reached under my dress and she grabbed a handful of my ass. I moaned in to her mouth while my fingers found her nipple and squeezed it. She answered that by shoving her tongue deeper in to my mouth and I sucked on it like it was a dick, bobbing back and forth as much as I could on it while she moaned.
I let her tongue go and she ended the kiss. My hand was still on her boob and her hand on my ass. She locked eyes with me, looking INCREDIBLY sexy… could I be with a woman?! I looked back at her and made the decision… I could absolutely try… if she wanted to…
“Could you taste him on my tongue?” She asked while squeezing my ass. I nodded, still kind of mesmerized. “That’s so fuckin hot, huh… too bad he went to the room, could have been a fun night for the 3 of us…”
“The 3 of us?”
“Yeah, plus he could have finally had sex with you. Would have been hot to watch.. but anyway, I need to go tend to my husband and make sure he isn’t asphyxiating on his vomit, he did drink a lot.”
With that, she gave me a spank, then walked to her room… and now there I was… standing in the kitchen… horny af, but more confused than before.
As hot as that was… why did it feel…wrong? Well, whatever, I’ll get over it.
Fast forward a week, we’d already gone back to the routine of me swallowing his cum every weekday, but funny enough, she NEVER brought up me sucking on her tongue or what she’d said. She was almost acting like that moment with her and I on new years didn’t happen…
We had a night together, the 3 of us. We decided we needed a day of just the 3 of us. For absolutely no reason… we decided that we were gonna watch the new Exorcist movie… at night… in the dark… with his new surroundings sound system he’d had installed.
Let me tell you… those speakers are assholes. Sounds going on behind you or next to you while you’re ALREADY freaking out cuz the movie is scary, added a level of immersion I DID NOT appreciate. He got a kick out of it.
Well he either enjoyed it cuz she and I were jumpy messes, or because he was sitting in the middle of the sofa and she and I were on either side of him, cuddled up, freaking out. He had an arm on both of us and was comforting us when we would get scared.
Now… I don’t know what he was doing to HER while we were watching the movie, but I CAN tell you that he had his hand under my shorts, half holding my ass and also rubbing a finger between the cheeks, almost teasing my hole.
Again: I wasn’t uncomfortable, per se, but… it just didn’t feel right! But I didn’t move, I just let it happen. Why? Because he was enjoying himself and that’s what I told myself was the reason we were doing anything at all.
We finished the movie and QUICKLY decided… Let’s watch some family guy or something funny because the movie scared the hell out of us.
We watched a couple of episodes to break the fear and then talked for a bit. I ended up laying on my back, but my head was on his lap. She was still cuddled up to him on the other side and was running her hand thru my hair.
In my head, things were starting to feel better. Now it was feeling like it was back to normal! This didn’t feel wrong or transactional, this felt pure and organic and RIGHT!! I heard her sigh.
“I got my date for my next training by the way. Bad news, I’m gonna miss your birthday..”
I looked up at her and honestly… I was kinda bummed. “Nooooo… that sucks!!! We always spend my birthday together!! It’s gonna suck if you aren’t here! Who am I gonna go shopping with?!”
She frowned.
“I’m sorry!”
“Don’t be too bummed out, I’ll still be here!” I looked at him and he was smiling, trying to reassure me that my bday wouldn’t be a total let down. That ALSO felt normal. Maybe things were finally settling down.
She looked at me again, then turned to him, then back to me. “Tell you what… on your birthday, since I’m not gonna be here… you guys can do it.”
I looked at her and was at a complete loss for words. Since she’d said that when she gave permission, it could happen, she hadn’t mentioned it AT ALL since then. I just assumed it wasn’t going to happen.
I looked at him, and he was just as shocked. He looked at her “do it?”
She scoffed, a smirk on her face. “Yes, do it. Fuck. Have sex. Bang. Whatever you want to call it. It’s gonna be her day, I’m not gonna be here, so… you two have my blessing, you two can hook up.”
He and I locked eyes. He could tell I was nervous. “Hey, it’s her blessing, but it’s your body, Liz, we don't gotta do anything you aren’t comfortable with. Don’t think about it now, just tell me when we are closer to the day.”
I didn’t say a word. I just went back to watching family guy before we went our separate ways.
Another week went by and I’ll be honest… I was nervous. But he wasn’t helping AT ALL. Every time I put his dick in my mouth (every weekday) he had taken to reaching for my ass and he’d press a finger on my butthole the whole time I was sucking. Once he’d cum, he’d say the same thing: “We gotta talk about possibly letting me put it in you, mija..” then I’d look at him, worried, and he’d quickly correct himself. “In your ass, not pussy, not till your birthday…. If you want to.”
It was back to being…weird!
Then came the day before yesterday… I was up and in the kitchen making breakfast when he woke up for work. He came to the kitchen, walked up to the table, waiting for some tacos. He ate while I made him some coffee in his travel mug, when he suddenly spoke up.
“Tomorrow.”
I looked at him a little confused. “Tomorrow? What about tomorrow.”
He smirked. “Tomorrow when I get home from work, I don’t want to cum in your mouth…”
I was still a little confused. “Ok… so where do you wanna cum?”
He was still smirking. “In your ass.” I was frozen. “It gives you a full day to prepare, that way tomorrow we’re both ready.”
I didn’t know what to say. I mean… I’ve had anal sex before… I’m not the biggest fan of it, but I’ll do it… I didn’t know how to prepare myself for it, cuz every time I’ve done it, it’s just been a spur of the moment thing… I found myself doing something I never thought I’d be doing… I was googling “how to properly have anal sex”
TURNS OUT!!! There’s like steps needed to ENSURE a more pleasant experience with anal sex.
Step 1: AT LEAST 24 hours before you’re gonna do it, don’t eat solid foods, instead substitute food with bone broth so there’s no… surprises back there.
Step 2: Hydrate. It makes it so all the muscles and stuff back there are decently elastic-y and pliable… not sure how or what that means, but ok.
Step 3: LUBE. Lots of lube, preferably water based lines so that nothing gets irritated and it makes clean up MUCH easier.
Optional Step: use a small plug a half hour before so that you start the stretching process before hand.
I thought about it for a bit and said ‘Fuck it.’ I was going to go through with it. I was already swallowing his cum every damn day, this was just one more step. Plus, if we were going to have sex on my birthday, this would probably help any awkwardness, right?
Well I went to sleep after they left for work, but I woke up and went to the grocery store and bought bone broth, then made sure I had plenty of lube.
Let me tell you. 24 hours of bone broth SUCKED. I love food, but screw it. I’ve always been an all in kind of girl. I didn’t start my bone broth diet until after he got home. The last thing I ingested before drinking bone broth for a whole day was his cum.
The day came. He was up in the morning, I was in the kitchen again when he saw me. We made small talk over tacos (well, HE had tacos… I had broth) and then as I handed him his coffee, he addressed what was expected later.
“When I get home, I don’t want you wearing anything, the less time we waste, the better. I can’t tell you just how bad I want this work day to fly by.. I’ve been wanting to be inside you for the past couple months and even though it’s in your ass and not your pussy, I’m really looking forward to it, so… quick blowjob, then the ass, ok?”
He phrased that like he was asking a question, but… it didn’t seem like he was ASKING… I nodded, and he left for work.
The day crawled I was in a mix of like… excitement, nerves, and fear. I was MISERABLE. I was hungry, kind of cranky, and on edge. The whole morning, I didn’t eat, just drank broth and water. Eventually, I decided it would be easier to pass the time by just sleeping till he got home.
I went to sleep and slept for what felt like FOREVER. When I woke up, I saw it was around 4, so I had an hour-ish before he got home. I showered and shaved to make sure I was clean and smelling good. After I finished drying off, I reached for my clothes when I remembered what he said…’“When I get home, I don’t want you wearing anything.’
Once it was closer to 5, I went to the living room, stark naked, with my little bottle of water based lube and sat on the sofa and watched tv.
While watching tv, I heard a car pull up. I looked at the clock and saw… 5:25… this is it.. the point of no return…
The door opened and there he was, looking right at me. The smile on his face when he saw I was sitting on the sofa, totally naked the way he’d asked was huge.
He dropped his bag and immediately pulled his scrub top off and started walking over, almost falling over while trying to pull his shoes and pants off. By the time he got over to me, he was naked save for his socks, leaving a trail of his clothes between me and the front door.
He wasted ZERO time, he reached down and guided my head right to his already hardening dick. I took it in my mouth. He moaned as my tongue slide up and down his dick, then he put a hand on each side of my head and then thrusted his hip, fucking my mouth.
“Fuck mija, I needed this so bad all day…” he moaned as he kept his steady pace, in and out, in and out, in and out. I put my hands on his thighs, concentrating on not gagging as he pushed his dick deeper and deeper in to my mouth. I was wondering how long he was going to want my mouth before he’d want to move on to his main course, when he suddenly stopped thrusting, his dick out of my mouth. “Do you have lube?”
I nodded, then swept my hand on the cushion next to me until I found it, grabbed it, and held it up to show him.
“Ohhh! Good! Cuz I don’t think spit is gonna do it to make it easier for you. Ok, stand up, turn around, and kneel down on the sofa, doggy style.”
It was like I was on auto pilot. I stood up and did exactly as he asked. My back was now to him, I kneeled on the sofa, legs a little apart, propped up on my knees, my arms holding on to the back rest of the sofa.
I wasn’t looking back at him, I was just looking forward, half at the wall, half in to the kitchen.
I felt a big glob of the cold lube land on my ass, and then felt his hand rubbing it in between my cheeks. I felt his finger pressing in to my hole until I felt it slip the tip inside it.
“Lean on your chest, reach back and spread your cheeks for me, mijita. Let’s do this right.”
I did as he asked, still on auto pilot. I felt his finger slide deeper in. It’s not the most comfortable feeling.. I could feel him pushing his finger in and out of my ass, slowly. Once he was satisfied that I was ready for him I felt his finger slide out, then he spoke… “ready, baby?”
I didn’t answer, but I felt the head of his dick pressing against by ass. I couldn’t believe what was happening, but I remembered what I’d read. I took a deep breath as he applied more pressure. I felt the head of his dick push in to me, and then suddenly, pop. The head of his dick was inside me. I exhaled all the air I had in my lungs to help me relax as he SLOOOOOOWWWWWWLY push inch after inch into my ass.
It hurt. He’s… not a small man… I kept breathing as his dick slowly invaded my body. I did my best to relax my body as much as possible to make it easier for him to slide in to my ass. After what felt like forever, I felt his pelvis make contact with my ass and it occurred to me. He is inside me. He leaned his bodyweight on to me and there was no denying it at all. He was buried balls deep in me.
“I can’t believe it right now… I’m inside you, mija…”
My eyes were shut tight from the pain, but it was bearable, when I felt him pulling back.
“Don’t fucking pull out quick! It takes a minute to get used to it!”
He chuckled. “Not my first rodeo, Elizabeth, but… apparently it’s not your first one either…”
I regulated my breathing and forced my body to relax. He grabbed on to my hips, almost to hold me in place as he sloooooooowly pulled back his dick until it was just the head in me, then he slooooooowly pushed it in again.
“Mmmmm!!!! You’re so tight, Lizzie…”
I bit my lip as I felt it sliding back in. “I know, FUCK, it’s tight. Just take it slow…”
He got his dick all the way in my ass again until he was buried in me again, then repeated the process. He kept the same slow place for a few minutes, giving me the chance to acclimate to the thickness and size of his dick.
Again, he leaned his weight on me, then I felt his arm reach over my hip and reached underneath me till his hand could touch my pussy. He proceeded to rub on my pussy while his dick inched in and out of me.
Again, I am not a fan of anal, but I did realized that I had never been with someone who, yes, was fucking my ass, but also still wanted me to enjoy myself, cuz I’d never been with anyone who was using their hand to get me off while they used my ass to get off. The mixture of the pain from the anal with the pleasure of his hand playing with my clit was new for me, and I must admit… I wasn’t minding it.
He started picking his pace up, thrusting in and out faster and more and more, I didn’t seem to mind it as much. It still hurt, but it was becoming more and more bearable, almost borderline enjoyable. My arms were getting tired, so I let go of my ass cheeks and rested them back on the backrest of the sofa as he kept speeding up his thrusts.
The added friction of my now not spread cheeks must have felt good for him, cuz he moaned louder, but it kind of hurt a little more for me, I’m assuming because my ass was no longer spread open, I’m assuming.
I concentrated on regulating my breathing as his balls started to slap against my pussy.
“Fuck, Lizzie, I’ve wanted this for so long!” He growled at me as he kept thrusting in and out of my ass. Just as I was starting to settle in to his rhythm, he pulled his dick all the way out. “Turn over and lay on your back.”
I did as I was told again, I got back up, then turned around, sat on the sofa, then slid down till I was on my back. Before he could say anything, I grabbed my legs and pulled them to my chest, trying to pretzel myself to make it easier for him, but I’m not that flexible. He grabbed the lube and poured some on his dick before rubbing it on with his hand. Once his dick was relubed, he grabbed my legs, lifted them up, but then lushed them towards my head, forcing my butt to point up. This wasn’t the most comfortable position… he kept on hand pushing one of my legs while used his other hand to line his dick up with my ass. He pushed it in, it went in easier, but there was still a bit of force required to make it go in. I gritted my teeth, but fought past it, as his dick slid in and he started his rhythm back up when he noticed my face.
“Does it hurt baby?” He asked as he put his other hand on my leg, now pushing both back. I nodded, my eyes closed as he started to piston in and out of my ass. “It shouldn’t take much longer, or do you want me to stop.”
“Don’t fucking stop! Keep going!” I almost yelled, kind of frustrated at how uncomfortable I was, not only cuz his dick was in my ass, but also from this position.
He smirked, then picked his pace back up. After a bit, he put his hand back on my pussy and used his thumb to rub my clit while he proceeded to hit his peak pace and thoroughly started fucking my ass. I moaned as his thumb added pleasure back to the pain equation. I put my hands on the back rest, just looking for something to hold on to as he kept fucking. I opened my eyes and saw locked eyes with him.
“Baby, I won’t lie, it’s so hot watching your tits bounce as we fuck…” I concentrated on my breathing while he kept fucking me, when I realized how close I was to cumming.
“Fuck! Don’t stop! Keep rubbing my pussy! My breathing intensified as his dick kept pistoning and his thumb kept rubbing when suddenly, it all became too much. My climax hit me, my pussy sparked and my ass clenched on his dick. My body tried to moan to let the air out, but it was like I couldn’t breathe. Nothing came out. It was intense. Eventually, all the air left me in one big moooooaaaaaaannnnn. He smiled as he kept fucking, enjoying watching me writhe in a mix of pain and pleasure.
I opened my eyes again and saw his sweaty body still thrusting in and out of me. Then suddenly, he stopped and pulled his dick out of me, breathing heady. “Ok, my legs are fried, lay on your side and hug your legs.”
I did as I was told and he sat next to me, then leaned on to his side so we were almost spooning on the sofa. He lined his dick up with my ass and went back in.
He went back to fucking my ass, spanking me occasionally. By this time, I’d cum, my ass was in pain, and he was done rubbing my pussy to make it more bearable, I was over it and just hoping he’d cum already. Then, after a couple minutes, it seemed like my hopes were answered. As he kept pumping in to me, he spoke up.
“You ready to feel me cum in your ass, babygirl?” I nodded and he intensified his pace, thrusting in and out in and out in and out, then his moans became deeper, and suddenly he shoved his dick inside me as deep as he could go. “Fuuuuuuuuuuuck!!!!!” I felt his dick flex and spurt after spurt after spurt of his cum shot out of his dick and coated inside my ass.
He gave a couple last spasms and I could feel the hardness leaving his dick. He fell back on to his back, breathing heavy, but I stayed still, not wanting to leak his cum on to the sofa. It took him a bit, but finally, he noticed I hadn’t moved. “Shit! Lizzie! I’m sorry! Let me go get you a towel!”
He got up and ran to the bathroom and came back with a towel. He gave it to me and I put it on the sofa so I could sit on it before getting up to clean up.
As I got up, I looked at him as he was picking his clothes up.
“Man, mija… that was amazing.” He said as he stood up straight with all his clothes in his hands now. “I can’t wait to get your pussy, now!” And he walked towards his room, I’m assuming to shower and clean up.
As I was cleaning his cum out of my ass, the feeling was back… I don’t know how else to put it… this all felt wrong…