Explaining some frustrations of mine (Heavy, heavy spoilers for almost the entire update)

I've mentioned many times that I haven't been very happy with how E13 has turned out. I added a ton to it, made alterations and in some cases made things worse.It has made it very difficult to get past the mental blocks I have to get this update out. I've tried forcing my way through it many times with many release dates. I even hired Dionyx partially to help force this out but after everything blew up on the 10th I rescinded that control because of how pissed I made everyone. I set the date on the 15th and things would have been ready in time but I just couldn't release something that I knew was sub-par at that point. I just felt like everything would get so much worse afterwards.Then the plan shifted to trying to release E13+E14 together as I am much happier with the state of E14. But we just weren't able to finish everything in time for this month and to be honest I don't know if it would have been enough for me to get over the hurdles right now.The reality is that this just isn't a very good update but I am way, way too deep into everything to make meaningful changes to it at this point. I've tried tweaking everything I can without large changes and it just hasn't improved.And when things have taken this long with this many missed releases. It's fucking difficult to put out something that you know will disappoint. I keep making the same mistakes over and over again.Expectations are high, I feel the pressure.Add on the irl issues and technical shit and everything has just been an absolute dumpster fire.I am not blind to it, trust me when I say I am even more frustrated than all of you are. This shit is not fun. I haven't set and missed this many dates out of anything but pure desperation to try and get things out but every single time things just continue to get worse.I am stuck and we just continue to loop.I work on it and force myself to like it just enough to finally think it's ready to be put out until release time comes around and all of the emotions come running back.I want to explain and showcase some of the problems so this isn't just words.The problems mainly stem from very poor pacing and too much focus on sex and side characters.It's a long update where very little time passes and not enough meaningful things take place.It just feels very unsatisfying to me.This update was originally going to be much shorter... I believe the original version was only around 400 renders but I originally got stuck on the Daliah scene.After being stuck long enough, I decided to add things to the update. The very first scene is the biggest offender in this update. This first scene is larger than what the entire update was originally going to be. This scene ended up being 415 renders.If you remember the last official release, it ends with Hannah and Eden bickering and ending the massage early. Willabelle and the MC then talk about going to meet Daliah.(BIG SPOILER WARNING, MOST OF THE UPDATE EVENTS BESIDES DALIAH AND MOST OF JASMINE IS SHOWN)In this version... That has changed, I read feedback where people expressed that they were annoyed that everyone was just willing to move on from them ruining the group event. So that's why the first scene is called spunishment.Things begin similarly with Hannah and Eden getting into a scuffle. But things change when Jamie warns them that if she can't trust them, they won't be invited to group events anymore.  Which ultimately leads to an optional scene where all of the girls get a turn to spank Eden and Hannah.Which for the record, I really enjoy this first portion of it. It's fun and lighthearted and only lasts for about 100 additional renders.But the more I got stuck, the more I added to this scene.I took a scene that was planned for a later update and added it in here. Which was a sex scene with Eden and Hannah.

 Which was fun to make... but I just added way too much to it.It was made in a way that I can't really make it any smaller without having to change a ton of renders. (Which is also a little funny as their was an issue with the morph on MC's penis that made it larger that by the time I realized... I couldn't make it any smaller without having to change a ton of renders.) And this scene goes on And on... And on... And on... Until eventually it does come to and end 400 renders later.Which this scene isn't the worst to me, it's fun and while the pacing is bad... it has enough redeeming qualities but it showcases where I went wrong with this update.I just added a lot of things that did not need to be here. Mostly sex.The next scene is short and it is called autographs. Willabelle and the MC head back to the lobby to see if Ninja is still waiting there.This scene is mostly fine but still fits the bill of feeling unnecessary.You meet a girl named Lulu while waiting. Lulu has an annoying boyfriend that gets mad at you for talking to her.They leave.Then many girls come to you and ask you to sign their chest. Still unnecessary but it was fun to add and short enough to not be a drag. Afterwards you meet Quandra who was waiting in the lobby in place of Ninja. After a small disagreement with Willabelle. She takes you to Daliah's room. I'm spoiling a fuck ton of this update right now... but I'm going to steer clear of this scene. I'll explain the many issues I had with it after it is released. But this one by far has been the biggest issue for me.Mostly just stemming from not being sure how far to take things. After the Daliah scene, you meet back up with Willabelle.Where you also run back into Lulu who you met in the lobby.This is another decently long scene (close to 200 renders) that just wasn't necessary. Just to be clear, Lulu is a complete one off character. But you're given the options to win her over and get back at her annoying boyfriend. So, fun times ensue... a complete one off gets 200 sex renders in an already very sex heavy update. Which is something I've done way too much in recent releases. There's been way too much sex and not enough story.Completely unnecessary, if I didn't share the render numbers including this scene I likely would have cut it.I just feel like I really lost the plot with this one... I honestly really want to get back into the basketball plotline and focus on that for a long time. Which is a heavy part of E14. The next scene is the one titled resort. Which is simply just a scene where the MC checks in on everyone. It's mostly focused on Jamie as she's having a rough time after a phone call with her mother.This is one of the scenes that I added an extended version of.this scene isn't bad... it would be fine in a better update. Just not a lot happens in it in a long update where not a lot happens already. We're 1000 renders into this update at this point and time has barely moved. And outside of the Daliah scene it has been nothing but sex. Which I get this is a porn game but I just drowned this update with it and it makes everything feel meaningless to me. There's some cute moments in this scene, I really don't mind most of it.  If you're not dating Jasmine... everyone eats some pizza before leaving for the airport. The Jasmine scene is fun and cute. I think it's good but it feels a lot less good when it's encompassed by a lot of the meaningless moments in this update. I'm not going to spoil too much of it, it's a good time.After her date... it's a short flight home and that's it for E13.So the original reason I got stuck on this update is not at all the reason I'm stuck now... I just straight up don't like it that much. There's way too many MMMmms! and Aaaaahs! And not much else.I genuinely don't know what else to say about it, and after sharing the size of the update many times I didn't feel like I could make cuts so I tried to add things to the sex scenes that haven't happened yet. It's just a deep dive into the trend that WVM has been heading into for a while. The story has barely moved but a lot of new boobs and butts to play with. I just lost direction and focused on what was fun to make at the time and it's just led to a long pointless update that I just feel empty about which is an awful thing to say as a creator. But it's the truth.I genuinely don't know how to get past this right now, I don't feel like I can just take half the update away but I already know all of the critique points people will have and they're right.I'm so off the tracks because WVM has fallen off the tracks. And I genuinely think I'm on the right direction with E14.But there is this big roadblock in E13. I feel like and have been a total failure over these past 7 months. I have to get it out but I just genuinely don't want to at this point. It's not even that deep but I've been working on this game for 5 years and I just need to get back in touch with what made WVM a good game.I genuinely don't know what I'm going to do right now. I'm so sorry for missing so many dates. I genuinely just want to make a good game. And I haven't been doing that and I'm facing the ramifications of that.I don't know if the update will be out today, I genuinely want to scrap most of it but that feels like it would be a great disrespect to all of you after so much time. I'm just stuck.Everything is 100% on me, I'm the one that included these scenes... no one made me do it. I'm not trying to use this as an excuse... it's just the reality of the situation.I'll let you guys know what my next move is as soon as I know what it is.Pledges will be paused until all of E14 is released. Sorry guys.