I know it's a day early, or late cause time zones, but happy thanksgiving everyone, if you don't celebrate I hope you just have a lovely day with your family. Now it should go without saying I'm incredibly thankful for my family, for you all, for the fact that anyone remembers who I am after over a decade doing videos and streaming, not a day goes by where I'm not thankful for having the most understanding, and nice fans ever, hell you run the discord, thank you Ragnar and Merchant and mods :'3.
Because of you all, I can just focus on creating and not have to worry about the Youtube side of stuff while still being salty videos don't go out to more people, while the site removes subs by the 1000's. I'm very salty about that as you an see, I'm sorry XD. Moving into next year I plan on finding something new to be passionate about.
Gaming Mysteries was the first video segment I had that took off, it felt great talking about all these unknown topics and games that would never see the light of day, and some that managed to do just that. The segment felt special to me, but in the current age of Youtube you can find tons of channels that do a much better job covering the topics I've covered, hell if you type in Gaming Mysteries you get another channel entirely. So while I still love the segment and will still do it, I at the same time suddenly feel very unqualified, and bad at all this. Imposter Syndrome is the term my doctor used. It sounds cool, nice song from Circa Survive, shitty otherwise if you've experienced it.
That kind of fuels my self doubt of how I'm shocked anyone remembered, or enjoys me, because I don't feel good enough to be in this position, like I don't deserve such kindness. These are confusing thoughts my mind fights with on a regular basis, it does affect the production of videos, for which I apologize, my doctor recommended therapy, which I unrecommended after attending a session. So this is just kinda something I hate to learn to deal with.
Still, thank you all, every single one of you. I will never not be thankful for the love you've shown me over the years, knowing that I'm helping or entertaining someone is what keeps me going these days, so thank you for still watching after all these years.
The next video proper I want to be a Kamen Rider video, I don't have the footage ready, and didn't have time to record it as this month my grandmother has been relapsing a bit, getting bad vibes, it just a feeling in the air, in how she talks.
I'm sorry for the lack of video this month, I do want to do at least one Patreon exclusive Kamen Rider video on here before the month is over, so I Hope someone enjoys that.
Until that time, I'm here if you have any questions, stay safe, stay thankful, stay golden, thank you all, for everything.
Sincerely yours, Yuriof oh my god he's so neurotic wind<3