I totally lost my motivation for photos and work some time ago. I feel like I'm used to this state and it's hard for me to get out of it.
It's not like I'm ignoring you or I don't have time, I just promise myself every day that I'll take a photoshoot and I end the day with the hoping and 'tomorrow I'm gonna do it!'
Little activity on Patreon is due to my daily struggle with myself, I know I should, and I want to, but I can't.
Every day passes very fast, I don't even know how quickly the time has passed, and February is almost over.
Everyday duties include taking care of the house, my cat, workouts, cooking, and it drains the rest of my strength and energy. My life is really monotonous and honestly, just boring.
Maybe no one knows, but I have depression, which I was diagnosed in high school. It's a long story. But I'm doing well now, I'm working on myself for a long time and at the beginning of this year I started to feel better, unfortunately, I need time to change my daily routine and regain my energy.
I'm sometimes absorbed by monotony and depression, which I have been struggling with for years.
Also, my old camera and other stuff that is not working well anymore are really demotivating.
It's been a long time since I wanted to post to you about how I feel and why I don't have regular photoshoots or cosplays that I promised, but I was hoping it would be better and I wouldn't have to explain myself. However, I know that many people stop supporting me because of not keeping my promises regarding my content.
I really want to feel happy and do what I've been doing for the last few years with joy and motivation.
I don't want to leave this month without anything, that's why today I want to do a photoshoot and maybe some selfies + I'll try to find and edit some older a photoshoot for you ♥
I promise, however, that I will start March with new cosplays!