Episode 90 (Sneak Peek)

Full release on July 9th, 2022

A kind of vent-y section below this line, regarding my feelings and stuff, no need to read if you don't like as there isn't any important announcements in it.

As always, I think you for your patronage. You make my life easier, in more ways than you know.

I think I'll be putting out shorter updates for a while.

Usually after falling into a slump I can kind of get up and get back at it again, I'm in one of those. I don't know if it's taking longer to get out of it than usual or what.  Those of you who've read these entries have probably seen that happen more than once. (I'm so sorry ; v ;) Finishing one panel feels like running a marathon, it took me three days to rough out this chapter because nothing was coming out.

See that panel with the dagger wrapped in a red cloth? this is what it looks like without the colors and lights;

I really liked this panel. it's not the prettiest, but I liked drawing those thin strokes that get drowned out in the colors and lights and shadows. I took my time with them. I don't know. I feel like in the last three years of making this comic and trying to keep up with webtoon's and the internet's algorithm I traded in speed for everything else, and I'm not even that fast.

I still like the overall process don't get me wrong. But it's in these panels where I can take my time creating them that I feel a sense of peace... before ultimately the irritation of having spent too much time on one panel gets the better of my temper and I get mad at myself for dilly-dallying. For wasting time.

I need to slow down, I'm not happy about it, but I can't keep up the pace I want to right now and it's frustrating. 

Behind the scenes I've been trying to put together other things. Trying to learn to make my skills better, it's difficult without a teacher or a mentor to look over my shoulder. I want to put more on this page, maybe open another tier, to make it a little more worth your while, your time, your money.

This is all I know how to do. But I don't know what I'm doing most of the time and my skills aren't at a place where I want them to be.

Long story short; I'm frustrated with my skills, my speed, the fact that I don't seem to be capable of making things faster, of making other things, of making more.

I'm sorry for the vent ; - ; updates will continue, just shorter until I can get myself together enough.