Here’s another bit from my journal. Sorry if it’s not very good.
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These new things I can do are so weird. Blessing and a curse. I’m just so sensitive it’s hard sometimes, especially being around some other people. Already I felt funny about Angie, I did from almost the first time I met her, before this all really started. But now it’s the same thing with, like, some of the reporters we met. With Olivia. With some of the girls like Kathy and Morgan and that Bianca. About…omigod what’s her name, the chubby girl that used to work here, in scheduling? And then, today at the ribbon cutting, my little tingles really lit up when the new girls got off the bus from California, streaming off like little ants (well haha big tall ants with gorgeous hair omg). They’re different. Maybe we just need to get to know them? Then maybe we’ll bond? But, still, I feel protective of Dr J, like warm in my (so stupid big) chest like I wish he’d just let me put him in there and keep him safe from everything omggggg.
Anyway, they’re all going to be there tonight - Angie, Olivia, the girls hired from Evolution, and all the new women that got off the bus. I’m going to try to keep my empathy from being too big a thing for me tonight. I’m excited to see everyone dressed up, too: Josie, Lakshmi, my girls from the desk….and especially Melissa. And, ooo, super-especially Dr.J. I’m going to try to relax. It is a party after all, and I want to have fun.
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thanks for reading. I really appreciate it.
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