it’s gonna take awhile for me to be able to separate evan and enhypen. it’s not gonna be easy for me to completely stop talking about enhypen on an evan video and vice versa when there is a relation especially this early on.
i know a lot of engenes would want that separation given the different theories going around but we all process things differently.
in the recent years where kpop is changing so fucking much, i hope people are more understanding of how fans move on. some will be fast at it, and some will take a little longer. kpop has been a huge part of my life for the last 6 years and have loved so many groups. it’s truly not easy to be adapting to this much change.
so yes i’m sorry if i will talk about enhypen on an evan video and vice versa, im sorry if i will talk about seunghan on a riize video, im sorry if i will talk about cbx on an exo video, im sorry if i will talk about and2ble in a zb5 video and so on.
when people say kpop is life, this is literally mine. it’s my full time job. i consume it daily. i’ve been attached. so this is going to affect me in ways a lot of people may not understand. i don’t react to kpop just for the sake of reacting or content. i am very picky with what i watch and if you see it uploaded, i have invested interest, time and energy to that artist or group or content. it doesn’t just go away when there is an official statement released. even when idols end up with confirmed allegations, it affects a lot of us. it’s called betrayal. and that hurts even more.
sorry for the rant. i got triggered by a comment/post. i’ve been at this for a while and so i don’t really take comments particularly to heart, but some people just want to erase history so much and i just disagree. our history does NOT define us, but it does shape us.