I had two bad pain attacks and I couldn't really do ANYTHING without having to hunch over, tremble, and things starting to go black. I knew there was NO way that I could get down my narrow/step stairs of my apartment so I laid in bed, yelped for about two hours and had to "ride it out."
Then I tried to go to the bathroom (I'm so sorry for oversharing but this shows my hell), and I am basically almost always a bit dehydrated due to two medications I'm on, and it made my present attack a lot worse. I tried to ride this one out but it got up to an 11/10 and my suicidal feelings hit an all time high.I was lucky enough they took me back right away but it took hours to get anything for my pain, and some people would come in the room and not even tell me their name. I didn't even have a band on my arm till over an hour being there!
Thankfully I had a nice conversations with one of the people there and a SUPER painful injection in my arm, and the catheter put into my arm was put weirdly into my vein so that wasn't fun. But I got some really strong meds, and I had to CALL my surgeons office since they didn't respond to a message I sent over a week ago about how I can barely walk and essentially have NO quality of life at the moment.
$300 just to be seen at the ER and I am dreading the costs of the strong meds they gave me.
My surgeons office gave me pregabalin and prednisone to take. 30 days till my surgery.
I think I have to close off commissions, though I am a bit sad to say 3 people messaged me about getting one before my surgery and I haven't been sent the info.
I'm going to try to do a few short ones for Patreon, but when I ask for things to read I kind of get crickets. :( I'd love if people sent me erotic literature and things I can record that are 10 minutes or less, as I have to stand every 15-20 minutes at the moment.
If anyone can help me with my recovery, and affording some groceries/premade meal kits, it would honestly help me so much.I know I have asked more times than I have wanted to for help, and only a few of you kind of know me, but my family isn't offering jack shit or to come stay with me, I have no local friends and I'm essentially fucked with where I live.
Here is my masterlist of audios since I'm presently not recording anything. :(As of right now, I'm going to try to do short audios when I am able to, but depending upon these 11/10 pain attacks I am wondering if I should put my Patreon on hold.I feel terrible that all of you supporting me are barely getting any audios, and it's honestly not fair to ANY of you. <3I will keep everyone posted on my reddit page and also my subreddit (that I keep forgetting to post into).If you'd like me to record short little things just cause, or anything sexy, please let me know and I'd be happy to do my best for any of you, okay? I mean it. I'm constantly blown away that all of you want to support me, when I feel like I've been a fucking let down.<3