Hi there!
I'm a little bit nervous ... <(＿ ＿)>
I want to apologize to all of you for disappearing for so long.
I was going through a very dark time in my life, and let it cloud my feelings.
Whenever I faced hard times, I took refuge in my art, shoving my personal problems away.
However, with the arrival of AI, I began to totally doubt what I do:
Do I have any purpose as an artist?
I felt insecure of my capabilities ~
I felt that all effort I spend to improve meant nothing at the end of the day~
I didn't know if it made any sense to continue living my passion and spirit through my art~
Then I began to feel sad ~
i no longer found refuge in art ~
i felt that a very important pillar of my life was crumbling in front of my eyes ~
This feeling was enough to close me off to people and stay in harmful solitude,
I couldn't control myself, I couldn't take refuge in art anymore,
My head was swirling with chaos → (•_•)（︶^︶）(✿◡‿◡) (╯▽╰) (╯︿╰)
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Despite everything~
Now I feel motivated again ＜（＾－＾）＞
Because I decided that I'm just going to go with the flow,
and if you guys stay here with me, I feel like I don't need anything else,
my soul is complete and I'm going to give my best.
Because I love what I do, and I don't want to stop doing it,
i refuse to take a step back! (•ˋ _ ˊ•)
In the future I will find a way to assimilate AI into my workflow in a way that helps me further develop and explore my authenticity as an artist.
But i will never stop improving my art skills, and i will always make handmade drawings because that's the way that I can express my own emotions and creativity.
I trust that with dedication I'll find a way to do really messed up things with the new technologies ahead, especially when AI animation tools come along (￣y▽,￣)╭
For now, this month, I will be presenting all the sequences of images that I was preparing, because although I felt bad,
I didn't stop drawing for a single day (～￣▽￣)～
Additionally: Around mid November, we will start Christmas requests!
You can take this as an opportunity for rebirth and a new season! q(≧▽≦q)
I believe that after this, there is nothing that can make me feel bad anymore.
Thank you very much for your support and again, i apologize for letting my emotions take over and cause this absence.
Going back to our usual programming, tomorrow I will add a new Kyoka Jiro post, I hope you look forward to it! q(≧▽≦q)