this is very scatter brained but i wanted to notify you guys as soon as possible so just bare with me, TLDR: not leaving just taking a break from being so fucking horny!!!!!!!!!
So I’ve been drawing as fooooly for about 10 years now, and lately I can’t bring myself to make any fooooly art that I feel happy with any more. I really miss that feeling. In an effort to inspire myself I’ve been sinking into a self-destructive porn addiction. its pretty clear that i like porn but wanting to draw it is a entirely different desire that i dont have right now.
I’m sorry to anyone who’s here primarily to support more art, but I think I’m just delaying the inevitable if I don’t take some time to build a new path for myself. I keep telling myself, “Just draw a couple quick pictures each month and everyone’s happy,” like I can clock in like a nine-to-five and crank out a dozen drawings in a week. But ive never found the tenacity to work like that.
It’s mentally exhausting to keep drawing in already well-worn ground, the same poses and ideas I’ve been repeating for years. my character fan art has a pretty niche appeal, leaning heavily into ideas that are mostly appreciated within this fetish.
All that said... I’m not closing my accounts, and I’m not leaving for good.
I think the best way to put it is i want to see my art mature, and try not to lean heavily on horniness as a crutch.
If you’ve been following for a while, you probably recognize the “character” of my drawings. the kinds of ideas I tend to fall back on. That’s what I need a break from right now. i just can't really keep up being the same fooooly any more. 10 years of drawing hundreds of anime and cartoon characters being giant, i feel like im hitting my limit on that.
so ill still be around this month and next, ive still got a folder to post at the end of this month. i'd even like to do some sfw streams.