TLDR Rain has issues, but is getting fatter and fixing things.
Hey everyone! I feel like I say this a lot... but sorry for mostly disappearing! I will respond to every single one of you and give you all the respect you deserve for supporting a lazy fatty like me!
Heat, tech issues, and in general adjusting to my body after some medical stuff which I had thought was good and turned out to well.... be more complex that I thought has left me exhausted. I am better, getting stronger and fatter everyday!
Gaining is now back on track! I will be honest... I lost a bit of weight when I was sick which killed all my motivation to make content, I felt embarrassed, I felt scared that people would look down on me, I felt alone, as most people would love if it their body started to drop weight all of a sudden but for me it was a nightmare. I worked so hard to get as fat as I was and for the first time in my entire life I felt confident.
Me! Rain! I felt confident! I've never been a confident girl, In real life I'm the quiet girl playing switch in the corner who will ignore you, not because I don't want to talk, but because I don't have the confidence to. With my gain I was actually feeling pretty, feeling like I liked how I looked, and the bigger I got the more my confidence started to swell! With the weight loss... I was regressing, I felt like I was losing all this and with my confidence on a downward swing I didn't even have the power to respond to half of you.
Even hanging out with people who I consider good friends was grating on me as I felt so down. This is obviously something I need to work on, and I need to communicate with you guys better, but I can say it is 100% because of the funds from this Patreon that I have been stock piling constant snacks and have been gaining everything back! I guess a lot of the loss was water weight, but a decent amount was not. I am still not 100% yet, I still feel a bit worried I just don't look fat enough but I know I look a lot bigger than I did a few months ago.
For my own mental health I am not checking the scale for a bit, but I did until I confirmed I was steadily gaining again! So I am sorry I can't provide numbers right now, but I hope seeing me up a lot from my last set, and my progress I will make the rest of the year will help!
So, basically, I am working on myself, I am eating more than I ever have. I am chugging boost and heavy cream before bed, I am having family sized bags of chips for snacks and have been having brunch style meals for breakfast ^^ So I am feeling much better both mentally and physically.
So please enjoy my pictures, and videos, I have more to post as soon as I post this! Also there is an alternate version, my camera turned off... no clue why... But it just kinda cut off! I didn't want to waste belly play so I still posted it!
If anyone does want to talk to me, my Discord is Rain 1587 Feel free to message me!