Just a small vent, feel free to ignore it if you want, but I also use Patreon as a sort of diary.
This week has been really difficult for me in terms of managing anxiety, since the bot purges on Twitter started and I lost around 5k followers.Yeah, they weren’t real accounts, but on top of feeling like I’m making negative progress, there’s also the anxiety from the fact that the platform has started shutting down legit accounts too. It brought back that recurring sense of total loss that I go through every few months.
All of this makes my work extremely hard to carry forward. Not because drawing is difficult, quite the opposite, that’s the fun part, but because I constantly feel held back, like what I do is somehow a problem, when in reality it’s just drawings of fictional characters’ boobs.
It’s stressful, but I still wanted to thank you all for the constant support you give me! I’m not planning to stop or anything, don’t get me wrong, I’ll keep drawing until I’m 90 XD (also because I don’t really know how to do anything else).