Hallo everynyan!
I knowwww i know i havent been posting but and i hate using the webtoon as an excuse but it's literally the entire reason why i'm so artblocked and burned out 😭 its at that point in the story where i have to write really difficult things and It's taking a lot of mental stamina to even script or storyboard.. like the drawing is fine, i like drawing! I can turn my brain off when I draw, but i can't turn my brain off when I write.. it's so bad, every decision i make in this season just feels so final bc i feel like im blowing everything up and what if people quit reading before things get better? 😭😭😭 idk .. it's the finale and there's still so much to be told and im getting old and frail and sick and burned out its so bad.. tfw u realize u fell off and ur chopped and ur unc ... it might be over..
I really wish I could post art every 2-3 days like I did before but I really can't anymore, there's too much at stake with the webtoon 😭 and i know u guys dont demand me to post art updates frequently at all because ur awesome and ur wonderful but i really feel like im scamming people whenever I don't post for over 3 days like whyyy am i taking people's money just to not draw ... everyone has a job they dont wanna do they all get up and go to work what makes me different 😭 even if i dont want to draw its my job and i should just shut the fuck up and lock in!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIKE THE REST OF THE WORLD DOES!! Everyone here's always so nice to me and it's a paradox bc the nicer people are the more terrified i am of disappointing them, like the haters know i stink already so i dont have to please them but i really gaf abt u guys so... 😭 idk disappointing people who believe in me is like my worst fear ever and i've just been losing my mind lately over it, sorry for oversharing again... pls dont feel like u have to comfort me or anything im just yelling into the void most of the time.. i feel like everytime i vent or yap it's always the same thing, but i can't get out of this loop bc i know i'm not drawing as fast as before anymore..
Anyways so sorry for the long yap and not replying to comments lately i'll try to keep up with it as much as i can, the nsfw monthly comic might be up this weekend and its so bad bc things are blowing up in the current webtoon and i have to draw cherie crush sucking and fucking like everything's fine in the porn comic.. 😭 but i think we all need a lil cope since the plot is getting scary rn... thank you so much for still being here despite my flop era..im always so grateful, have a good day everynyan..!