This is the second part of this month’s news, I didn’t really find a way to naturally put it on the previous part, so now it is a separate post.
As I mentioned before, these past months I haven’t made as much progress as I wanted in general. Truth is over the last 2-3 months I’ve felt how my mental health has been degrading with me being unable to stop it.
I’ve always been someone who struggles with it, so the feeling isn’t new for me, and while I won’t be entering too much into detail, I want to say that this time feels different. This time I’ve find myself unable to do art as I did up until now, and I realized that even when I managed to work, I wasn’t having fun at all.
For some time I’ve been trying to do pieces for myself or just try to enjoy the process of drawing again, I feel like it works at times but I’ve gotten so hyperfixated on getting better at a technical level that I just can’t seem to do it as I want to. I’m considering going into therapy again, or just seeking medical attention in general since I don’t feel like I’m making any progress on my own.
No need to worry about me stop doing MaM, I love this project and I would love to keep working on it until it ends; but as it is right now, I am just not in a good place. As I’ve said, I’ve always struggled with maintaining my mental health so by experience I know that I’ll eventually get better; I’m just trying to say that I progress will most likely be slowed down while I figure everything out.
I’m really sorry to say this but I felt like keeping silent would be abusing the trust I gained with the first demo; I don’t want to pretend that I’m working while I am not, I’ll try to keep you updated on how things go, but please understand that I may not be able to get as much as I would like.
As always, thanks for your support and understanding.