Update

So, the first step has been taken, and I managed to stay 24 hours clean.
Even though going cold turkey for this isn't the best approach, it's still a good sign. I'm already in touch with the people who will help me get fully restored, so yeah, better days are coming.

I've seen your messages, and I'm really thankful for your support. I don't even know what to say... I'm so bad with words lol. So, thanks! I really appreciate you guys.
I am committed to moving through this mess and there is not a single doubt in my mind that I'm doing the right thing.
I guess it's time to put my life back on track again